are you my friend?

2010-04-22T04:30:00.001-07:00

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2010-04-20T21:17:00.000-07:00

GOSH. The flu bug is very annoying! It makes me feel i'm more sick than having just flu itself. Am i the only one who feels this way? Once in a while, i will touch my forehead thinking i have a fever. GRR.
I made a really wrong decision to eat curry fishballs yesterday, knowing somehow my throat hasn't feeling healed.
So, i can't go school today to study with the rest, sorry to celine. No icecream and dinner with them, kinda sad.
Come to think of it, i often get sick before the start of exams. Weird. Out of all times, it's always before the finals.
Ok i can't really type properly now because i'm "multi-tasking". Watching TV and typing. Cognitive taxing. lost appetite cause of the flu. IRRITATING. Will take care of myself from now on. Restrain from food i'm now supposed to eat and hopefully no one tempts me with them, just like how my mother tempted me with curry fishballs! haha.Frank will kill or rather nag at me if he knows about the fishballs. EEks. Doubts he read anyway. haha.

Changing topic, i feel like i don't want exams to end because it will be the start of holidays and dad will be talking to me about the issue i'm dreading the most. Then it will be the end of holidays and start of Year 3. Dreadful. I want to have really really good food right after exams. And $$. haha.

whoopeedoo.

2010-04-19T00:40:00.001-07:00

I hope for more maturity and understanding from both persons. Do not annoy me at this point in time. I can't care too much anymore. the time is for me now to study. F.

2010-04-17T11:00:00.000-07:00

Time for revival?

It's been... 6 months since i last blogged. ok, who would know about this, about this new post? ahhaha. i doubt anyone.

So anyway, updates. Shaomin's party and emmeline's birthday celebration were great.

That reminds me, i need to get photos from shaomin. I wish i have a better camera, but i predict i would be lazy to take it out of my bag to use even though i would remember to bring it out. What is wrong with me! grr.

I realise blogging reminds me of many things i'm supposed to do, like checking my exam schedule, which many had already did! alright, off i go to check.

Alright, got it.
Mon: SW 5pm (MPSH5)
Tues: Bio 9am (MPSH2), Adol 5pm (SH)
Thurs: Stats 5pm (PGP)
Fri: Cog 2.30pm (MPSH2B)

Wrote them here so i can check back.
Basically i think my tuesday is really gross. First i have little time to study for biology on monday night and i have to stay in school till 5pm on tues to wait for my exam after bio ends. Need to find some company. Think i'm going to read some social work before i fall to sleep. Meeting Frank at his house tomorrow. Can't wait for glee on his new tv!

2009-10-18T08:09:00.000-07:00

help me.
i dunno what to do.
i should know.
but im just too tired to decide on one solution now.
can't believe this is happening it's like a drama.
fuck this shit.
i love you.

2009-02-13T10:01:00.000-08:00

Can't wait for britney's new video!!
Can't wait for anoop to sing!
why does he have to sing the day before my phys ppr man.
it could be a good sign though.
LONG TIME NO TYPE IN BLOGGER!!

2009-01-27T08:31:00.000-08:00

The last 4 days have been emotional. Overjoyed! Extreme sadness. Horrorified.
Cried and smile so much.

Overjoyed! because i've been to jb with my goodest friends and i've talked to people i haven't been talking to for a really long time and really opening myself up to them. I hope they did too. Learnt so much and laughed qt a bit. It was wonderful.

Extreme sadness. Because i had a really huge quarrel with dad and cried like shit and he did not take back his words. Plus, cried because of a old man. I hope he becomes more optimistic and not think about dying.

my blog is rotting.

2009-01-14T08:05:00.001-08:00

Qn: Why my mother wants me to close my door at night to sleep when she nags at me for closing in the past; does not give me a valid reason why.

Answer: I may never find an answer.

2009-01-07T07:43:00.000-08:00

Our faces look sweaty except of gongz, looking sexy. aha.

Anw did you guys see the 'danger' sign at the seats outside orchard mrt. Infested with worms! Sat on it before people realise there are worms and gawd, gave me swelling and fever cough etc.

seriously needa go mandai soon.

A thing i don't understand is how friends can say stupid things, seems like on impulse and don't realise how mean they are. They mean it and were not joking and gawd, hurts so much that i can't find a good way to react and tell them how i feel. Did i give a wrong impression? It's so annoying, ruins my mood for the whole day and feelings i feel for them and of course, gradually weakens the relationship i felt i had with them.

2009-01-05T07:41:00.000-08:00

Xiany's face like kns in the 2nd one.

ok Hope she dont read that. sorry k xiany, i give u my kns face.

Just one day's photos. Lazy to upload the rest. And i haven't get all the photos yet.
Just painted nails.
Anw, i din ruin nye for gongz, yay. haha. act eve was qt good ok! too bad din get my binoculars.
And too bad i din meetmu auntie, she said she was near clark quay, but i don't think so.
Right, got to do other stuff. see you!
shld i take any lang in nus? mmm.

2008-12-23T07:20:00.000-08:00

I spent so much time on my bed thinking so much that i realised i'm actually not living for myself. Should have known.
And i found out secrets about myself i could never ever tell my family.
do i need to start living for myself?

2008-12-23T06:46:00.000-08:00

NOW I KNOW HOW A DENGUE NEEDLE FEELS LIKE! OMG.
ouchouchouchouchouch. She puts the needle in deeper and deeper so slowly i couldn't wait for it to stop going deeper.
And i have to get that again next week shitshitshitshitshitshit!
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i feel like a prisoner in my hse man.
Omg dad is slping in front of me in front of the tv on the sofa! hahahaha. wa lao eh sideview damn funny. Thought he was just laughing at tv a moment ago. siao.
ok, my hse is not a prison.

2008-12-13T09:26:00.001-08:00

YTD WAS GOOOD!

2008-12-12T07:15:00.000-08:00

Today was damn bad.
My eyes are pretty tired from crying already.
Another thng happened today and it made me frown until my eyebrows almost dropped. That woman was so sickening.
But then, i'm also happy.
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i need my green land.

2008-12-11T10:12:00.001-08:00

Omg had a terrible nightmare. A nightmare of a couple and only emmeline can ask me what it is man. Got a shock of my half of my life when i woke up. "OMG. WTF. DIRTY THOUGHT!"
But, it can't be compared to the dream about me being pregnant with _______'s child. OMG. OMG OMGOMGOOGGOGGMMOG. freakin gross. and NY people knows best.
HOL IS FUN FuN FUN FUNFUFNFUFNUFNUFUFUFFN!!!
MAN.
SO CAN WAIT FOR SCHOOL TO START.
Please drag for as long as possible oh man.
this sucks already.
dreading my future.

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Dad got chicken pox.
CRAP!
changing hol date. hope he can make it by then.
And i seriously hope i get my pox soon perhaps jan.tried to get close to my dad but he kept shoo-ing me today.
"BUT I WANA GET CHICKENPOX!"
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

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I just realized, random din take any photo together during our gathering! crap whywhywhywhywhywhywhywhy!
Bolt was good man! Hamster was damn freakin funny. I could watch again. You bet i will!
And arcade was fun man.
Gotta train my bball skills. Im seriously freakin lousy. FAILED LIKE SHIT.
Ok not like shit but compared to this guy who used his left and right hands to shoot one after another into the net, i have totally lost my face.
I almost lost my wallet AGAIN! again again again! shit man. im damn shity.
I've got xiany's autograph book to write yippeedoo.
I love autograph book. So gona buy one and let people write.

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My thoughts are all over the place again.
Baked cake for the first time in my life, i think.
And i did for the 2nd time.
Glad joan and innpoh love our cake. Although the top part was damn chao ta.

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Had Carls Jr pretty often last and this mth. Totally rocks.
And i finally tried Soup Spoon. Mushroom rocks!But i like campbell too.
CYcled with family (everyone attended) at pasir ris yippeedoo.

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Haven't been using my cam recently. needa start bringing out and taking crap and funny photos asap. Keep forgetting to bring out everyday when i leave house grrr.
Since dad has pox, i shall do some things to reduce his boredom and "suffering" at home. I came home last night and asked "so, papa, what did you do today?"
DAD: "i'm suffering."
and it was only the first day. Poor thing.
Soon, it'll be me. But at least i know how to use the internet and i read books ahahahha.
Crap does anyone have any suggestions how to reduce boredom at hme, for someone who doesn't use the internet/read books/play mahjong but only likes watching tv and reading newspaper. He totally can't go out to jog or cycling or to the beach.

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Man it's so late already needa slp to wake up early tmr. I hope it'll be sunny tmr i wana tan man. SIs has been making many different kinds of food yippee. I'm eating shepherd's pie later when i wake up.

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Explored Sophia Road but din walk all the way in to my pri school, because it was too late already. Next time!Maisie and i heared timbre but just couldn't get to it. grrrr. Andwoah! so many new malls are gona pop out man can't wait can't wait can't wait! Anw, mango's sales is not great at all. NOTHING TO BUY! but of course, that's for me.

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I'm bored of typing. Since last night's event is still fresh in my head, because i haven't gone to slp with them, i can still rmb xiany is aka shocky aka miss rainbow aka miss orange aka huang lao taitai aka waller taitai aka XIANNY aka XIANY aka lao huang aka miss wong akak miss huang. She has 2 surnames please, seriously. Celine is starry, the girl who was drinking starbucks, stupid name. I'm heidi,who had headache. grrrr lamemo.

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I duno why im so full now. Must be my thng.

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Sookchan's overseas now. SOOKCHAN YOU SUCK!!!!!!!!!!! hope there'll be a super huge jam when you're coming back!

2008-12-01T10:34:00.000-08:00

JOan: Yea end of nov started then finished in less than a week! crammed. so din study much. tues on man.

Cathleen: i rock.

I love watching britney spears perform on stage man!
even the vma 2007 opening act.
even the lip synching.
ah whatever.
she's good!!!!!

damn tired today.

2008-11-29T08:15:00.000-08:00

MY exams over. AHA.
hello cathleen emmeline and celine.
let me tell you how happy i was over my seating arrangement.
psycho-2nd last row(YAY)
hist-last column(YAY)
Spore film-first row(YAY)
south asia-next to pillar(YAY)
exception of socio- smewhre in middle oh my yucks.
but overall, goooood!
ok time to play.

2008-11-07T09:24:00.000-08:00

Looked through old school photo and took some photos of funny sights. They are so gona kill me after this. but wth, damn funny.

Xiany and her stern motherly face.

Jerlyn's trying-to-be-rubber-face.

and Jerlyn looking like her mother. so emo.

me and bignostrils lck

Gongz and her layered fringe.

Scary majella.

Sad cathleen. Just had to show this because the 3 people above have the same pose as her.

Emmeline, my pom hair friend.

Gongz again with her nice hair and nice specs.

Shaomin too, with nice hair and specs. Maybe reflective glasses were in trend.

HEEHEEHEEEEE.

HOHOHO.

THE LOSERSSSSS.

Fighting game. we should fight for real again, like you said. This photo is so fake.

Together with the two lamo violent people who sat in front of us in class.

Meiru. teehee.

Emmeline acting cool and popular.

Gurung looking manly, me looking whitish and tootish and jerlyn acting childish.

Looking for Sarah, looking for sarah. She din not wave hi to me and emmeline the other day.

All looking lao tao.

'Fat', 'cold days', 'hard days'?????? - Gurung pls explain urself.

I dunno who this is, seriously.

Gurung, pls explain urself again. omg freakin mean.

Soo Can, my beloved friend.

Dont u have the feeling that she's LOOKING DOWN ON YOU.

love her ah.

Tanny, destroying the class photo, but nice ah.

Another one. Only one not looking at cam.

And this you can read yourself.

Uploading photos can be so tiring grrrrrr.
So many more funny photos but lazy to take too many.
Wanru looked damn CUTE in the sec1 yrbook ahahah.
alright, happy day everyberdy!

2008-10-18T12:15:00.000-07:00

damn sian leh. study 7 days a week.
there's this stall in school that has a picture of the soup looking like cement.
freakin funny.
but i feel damn bad after i said that to celine.
speaking of her, i will never forget what she said "i got nothing to do at home."
seriously weird.
ACM with serene today., i mean yesterday.
played a game in south asia gallery which is similar to the aeroplane board game; or at least we tink so.
Then there's funny video of how to do the indian dance. There was 'clap and dance'-failed. 'emotions and dance'-failed. But people with big eyes like serene can do the emotions.
On the day we went there was a graduation photo taking which seemed to be mostly old people graduating and a wedding going on, which we din get to see. We thought we were going to enter the wedding lunch in our berms and slippers because we were supposed to head to the direction of the wedding.
Basically, ACM was filled with NUS hist students. So obvious. All copying notes aha.

argh and i actually thought 18th oct is melissa's birthday so i wished her happy birthday around 10 plus. Then i realised it's my grandma's 2nd death anniversary. Seriously, damn stupid. I've been conscious of the 18th everyday of this week and forever and then i forgot on the 18th itself.
i feel like grabbing my heart out again.

Family was funny ytd. I feel weird saying ytd because i still haven slp since i woke up on 18th and its 3.30am now.
People are just too busy to read my blog now.
So i can write crap about friends maybe.
Right, here goes.
Gongz, why greenpoppies haven reply you they are freakin slow. I wana cut my hair but i'm lazy to go to the salon. If only you live near me you can cut for me anytime. I wana highlight again too.

emmeline, i so don't feel like replying your msg. ok kiddin. will do before slping. lets go swimming and jogging in nus i feel damn white and unhealthy and hairy.

jerlyn, i shall not say anythn bout you lest u say i talk about you in my whole blog.

sookchan why you always go shopping and out outoutoutout so free so unfair din ask me out are we friends or what. ask innpoh and joan too.

i still dunno what to major in anw.
econs? but thats like a popular course.
my dad's willing to enrol me in a sleeping course but he hasn't done the procedures yet. Liar. He wants to join the sleeping course too. Cool. Major.

i need my bed now.
night.

2008-10-08T08:40:00.000-07:00

XIaoyan: HELLO! is the music too sudden? sorry. aha. i change when im free. actually im free now but lazy.

Joan: eh your hp also can do distortion of face? no? i thought we took photos. or izit innpoh's or serene's. Eh you do leh i wana see aha.

XIany: thank you, you are very GLAM too. aha. What kinda fren are you didnt jio me to mustafa.
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After i thought about what i'm going to blog about, i feel like writing funny stuff about specific friends. First will of course be jerlyn. She's my reason for this entry.
I thought that no one will ever fall asleep while holding an apple already bitten in the hand until i realised there's jerlyn. The whole thing is very weird. Imagine you are eating apple on your bed, then halfway through you just lie down, chew and then fall asleep. So what happens to the apple? OMG. It's either the apple already bitten or eaten finish, thus leaving the core, in her hand. EEEEW. SEE. never brush teeth then sleep again. Ytd, i overheard her mum on the phone saying "eat your apple ah. Don't sleep with your apple again." check out the "again". WA LAO. I wana see for myself. There's another thing that's very funny. I think it's her grandma waking her up early in the morning to feed her cereal or smthn on her bed like 6.30am then she goes back to sleep. Huh? AHA.
ok i feel damn bad now. For telling everyone dirty stuff about jerlyn. Ok, next entry will be me ok. But i can't think of anything bad or dirty about me. Well, we'll see.

check out gongz. She's always the last one i dunno why. slow walker.

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I don't dare show more unglam ones of the rest. AHA. Later kena scolded.

2008-10-01T21:50:00.000-07:00

Had a good two weeks not successfully studying what i missed out in lectures for all modules. Recess week was quite wasted, as well as hari raya. But, had fun meeting up with friends though. No more time to exercise, i'm just rotting my butt at home nowadays studying studying at a rate of 1pg/30mins.

Currently waiting for macs to be delievered by my mum. She volunteered to buy. i did not ask her to.
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Recap on some events. Recent Biennale outing plus celebrating ahma's bd was greatgreatgreat. Could hear and see F1 cars zooming pass from supreme court and my dad made a huge fuss about the sound once because he heard it somewhere sometime. He came home one day and said "Wa today i heard the sound and now i know why so many people so crazy over it. It was like ... ... ... Wa now i know." YUCKS. He sounded too exxagerated and so long winded until we all ignored him and walked away, as usual. Went to luge and skyride again!!! And i found out jerlyn really has a bad sense of direction. That was the first time i see people crash into the side of the road, namely emmeline and jerlyn. Jerlyn even crashed into the mud, gross. I tried to help her by turning my luge backwards up the slope then i realised i'm stuck too, can't go up slope aha so i had to stand up to turn back towards downslope and wait for her to get out of the mud.

I went timbre and i think that will be my first and last time there. It's ok, just a normal chillout place and if the fan is not directed towards your area you may sweat and then your body becomes sticky for a long time. Or maybe it's just me and melissa. The bands were great, lead singers were awesome. We had to choose between 'stop and stare' and 'apologize'; obviously i shouted "STOP AND STAREEEE!" - it's not so stupid as 'apologize', and it was echoed by others.

I have this feeling i'm typing really incoherently, maybe a certain lobe in my brain is damaged so i can't plan and organize. Thanks to psychology, i've learned and forget so many stuff about our brains. So gonna flunk the MCQ test.

better go off to study. O O O O i can't wait for december to come.

2008-09-18T06:27:00.000-07:00

AHA!!! WA LAO. uglyuglyuglyuglyugly!

2008-09-17T11:22:00.000-07:00

ok, after more research on what is considered one pool lap - 50m, i'm convinced it's not back and forth unless its a lousy competitive pool. So cathleen, i owe u one buck.

2008-09-03T10:57:00.000-07:00

I felt like shit just now.
Realised i relied too much on my dad to drive me around.
If i didn't ask him to fetch me home his car wouldn't have broken down.
They all said no matter what, the car will still break down another time.
But i still think it's partly my fault, no matter what.
I was walking home while my dad settled the car and i totally couldn't hear him shouting for me. Turns out he wanted to borrow my hp. That was bad. With the rain, who could hear. But still, it's partly my fault. I did turn back, but i couldn't see him. I said sorry. And today was like the 'i'm sorry day' for me, because i said sorry to my whole family; i just knew things i had forgotten. Freaking childish of me.
The incident of my dad shouting for me just relates to my grandma incident. Just because of me and my stupid silent mode i couldn't see her for the last time. what shit was that. That's why i always feel like shit. Ya. It's my fault. Curse me.
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Constantine was on just now! 2nd time watching is pretty good, because i kinda forgot about the plot. It's seriously a good movie but Finding Nemo is still top on my list. I think i watched it more than 5 times already and i can still watch again and again and again and just laugh and cry as much AHA.
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I still feel like shit.
wellsssssssss, no such word i know. WELLS.
i wonder if everyone meets with trivial disgusting stuff (for e.g. a worm dropping onto your bag) every single day, causing the day to be a suay day. So won't everyday be suay. Ok, maybe not everyday but i feel most of the days. But most of the suay stuff are pretty funny AHA. Nice friends i have who gives me suayness and embarrassment. Ok, kidding. Now you guys are gonna say "who's the one who embarrass me." Then i'll reply "No i so don't. I'm of a higher class."
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Bull shit.
AHA.
ok see you.

2008-09-01T08:29:00.000-07:00

Jolyn is now busy and ignoring me. Are you reading this Bao Nan.
Gurung sent me celine emmeline (o bao nan just replied on msn.) jerlyn and pingsiew an email saying she's bored and asked about us when i already told her so much about me inside her birthday email. I am so angry. KIDDING.
Gotta read Hist. NOW.
Shld i get a life and join a cca?
What did all of you join?
And i realised I din have much of a problem dressing up for school. I think I'm trained to think faster what clothes to wear now. My mum's got to be proud of me. Although she din say it.
And i aso realised my entries' contents have changed.
Or have they not.
I want to get a locker!
Hope we settle it soon. I'm telling you cathleen sookchan and serene, the deadline for you from me is this wed. I repeat, this Wednesday.
ok my eyes are burning.
not from dirty images but from the screen, so see you!

2008-08-30T07:29:00.000-07:00

Jerlyn and I had 3 weeks of South Asian lectures already and on the first tutorial before it started, something weird happenedto Jerlyn.
So, we got into the room, i put my south asian coursepack on the table, we sat down. Then,
J: "why you buy this?" - pointing to my coursepack.
TY: "what u mean? south asia what."
J: "no why u buy this?"
TY: "HUH? what you mean."
J: "We're taking Southeast Asia"
TY: -preparing to laugh in disbelief. "huuu....h..hahahhahhaha. huh!"
TY: " What you talking about! We are taking South Asian leh!"
J: "o ya ah. I think ....... sot."
TY: - turns to serene and cathleen immediately. "omg u know what, jerlyn asked me why i bought south asian..... sh thought we taking SEA. hahahaha."
C and S : "huh?" -both gave blank looks.
J: -said nothing.
TY: "hahahaha..........."

kok sai.

2008-08-26T08:01:00.001-07:00

Wa lao i forgot to flush school's toilet today. But i did in the end. And look at this from Rally's Speech. "Queue up, be courteous, no spitting, please flush toilets."
School's ok.
New friends.
Old found friends.
Same continuous favourite friends.
aha.
ok reading transcript.
blog soon.

2008-08-12T08:35:00.000-07:00

i am damn hungry, damn hungry, damn hungry!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-08-07T06:53:00.001-07:00

Watch this! Caught it some time back and they are playing on the radio now. THe video is creepy cool.

2008-08-05T09:36:00.000-07:00

Here's to Emmeline.

WHAT DO I THINK OF EMMELINE

supportive
- you should know how much that means to me.
brave
-but vulnerable inside. But, still damn tough.
Funny
-hehhehhehh. puckpuckkeh??
Lame
- with me
Daft
- with me
Hyper
-woohoo linkin park man! jumpjumpjump! woots! Pee is out!!!! AHAHHAHA. wooohoo!
Talkative
-I'll never get bored.
Playful, mischievious
- Lets play man! weeeeeeee.
Trustable
-I tell you my secrets.
Friendly
- Helps me make friends indirectly.
Considerate
- sometimes too much.
Polite
- sometimes too much.
Laughable
- For making me laugh.
- At you.
- At people.
- At non-living things.
- At me.
Humble
- Emmeline chiobu.
Blur
- with me.

Right, limited vocabulary. Furthermore, i can't think of anymore. Seriously, i can't say or write what i think about you. It's just like how i can't say how much i love my family. It's just, i love you, you love me, we are one big family. FrEnZ FoReVeRz. and ever.
Now do you feel that you have to write me a list too?

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SO anw, we got our makeover photos already! Gona meet gongz soon to pass her and i shall show jerlyn now. hoho. Pity jerlyn couldn't take with us or it'll be happy family! But we also need Ah Ma! Slpy, no fixed time to slp today, maybe because my dad is too tired to care bout me. I think he thinks i'm a loser man, not going for orientations and all. "go la! You din even go for one. Then you don''t know what's happening. Huh? Go tomorrow."
Me:"huh! No la i din even join."
tiam tiam.
hmmmmmm.
and he said other stuff which are kinda similar to that sentence. super lo soh very dad.
more lo soh than mother. so weird.
But he just makes me happy.
His laughter heals my soul man!
so infectious!
Even though what he laughing at is so not funny i laughed with him. And i guess his way of showing his love for me is to drive me to wherever i want and bring me home from wherever i am. mmmmmmmmm. I feel the satisfation i also get from McSpicy. Ok kidding, im not so heartless.
Woohoo my lao tao father is getting new 'in' specs man! LIke finally!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok, shall read newspaper - to fufil his wish.
"must read newspaper ah."
"okok, gimme."
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Nite!
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(continued)
India's human stampede is heart wrenching. Please view photo in Straits Times.

2008-08-04T07:29:00.001-07:00

Reading Bridget jones now. Im reading it all in 2 days. That includes eyes rushing through unneccesary words and paragraphs skipping them and then flipping pages as fast as possible so as to get to the interesting parts, ie she and mark ahahahah. Lazy to read through GEM and SSM. Gosh. Hate bidding already pretty nerve-wrecking the first time and i feel like im playing with stocks, constantly monitering them, just that i don't have to call and answer calls. Alright, off to friendster. Yes! It's alive! Come visit my page! Like finally. Anw congrats christabel! Glad u got into common engineering with Ah MA! hohoho.

2008-08-03T11:12:00.000-07:00

I kinda transformed my supposedly wordy entry/entries to photos galore! Because of picasa, my photos are all separated into entries of 4, so just scroll down to view all!
Results of Emmeline and i webcamming.

2008-08-03T11:09:00.001-07:00

Skyride; looking uglyuglyugly with helmet(now i know thank you); bukit timah with emmeline; webcam with emmeline(nice sunglasses,i was laughing at her.)

2008-08-03T11:06:00.000-07:00

I've got translucent head!(like finally); climbing a tree then getting rashes and cuts; joan dancing; guess who!

2008-08-03T11:03:00.000-07:00

Obscene things with pamela around. Molested.

2008-08-03T10:59:00.000-07:00

Skyride; me and grandma(forever by my side); me and sis; dirty pamela and shaomin.

2008-08-03T10:52:00.000-07:00

I posted instant photo accidentally again.
Failed attempt no. 99999999

2008-08-03T10:45:00.000-07:00

This is how our video call went - matric card, ezlink card, zoomed in faces, ugly unglam faces (which i did not post).

2008-07-22T23:58:00.000-07:00

Our instant photos!
I wonder if cathleen still kept the one of my face.

2008-07-15T10:01:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO CATHLEEN AND DICKSON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sorry, im damn late here.
needa pee now.
see you.

2008-07-14T21:28:00.000-07:00

i smiled at the thought of having to join my grandmother.

2008-07-14T09:59:00.000-07:00

WAAAAAAA this is damn cute and funny. My new favourite cartoon. Thanks to innpoh. CINNAMOROLL. Im so gonna buy the stuff from sanrio.

2008-07-06T08:20:00.000-07:00

Due to overwhelming responses, ectually, no. Only a request by joan, i added sookchan into our grp shot. Welcome to our outing sookchan! I don't think she even reads this.

Got more photos from emmeline today but i shall upload sme time later.

VANESSA: REALLY! your friend NATHALIA! why din you say hi? she'll be too pleased to gossip to you about the naked women incident once more ahahah.

2008-07-05T08:27:00.001-07:00

JOAN: i shall try cropping them into the photo! ahaha. but i dunno how. cathleen din teach me.

CATHLEEN: eh show me the fass website when we go ur hse on the 14th! yes wana go ur hse first! tel me arnd what time you'll reach hme after ur checkup asap oK!

Dick family took lotsa photos on fri. mad man. stupid shaomin always take my unglam shots and post on her blog. I hope she doesn't post this round of shots up or she'll suffer greatly. Act, i took sme unglam ones of her too but i bet she won't post them up. But who cares, all of mine are chio.

I seriously can't rmb what i've been up to this week, other than meeting sookchan and sihui, going out with mum, then with mum and sis, meeting jerlyn (??). Omg serious stm loss. I met gongz too (??). I'm sure i din meet vanessa, which reminds me to book an appointment with her so i can pass her her present.

So, i need to sew my sis's uniform because my mum refuses to, and recently, i solved a secondary 2 maths qn for her which i felt extremely proud of. I took a long time thou, one reason being she din copy the whole qn down from her textbook and so i can only understand from her keywords on paper and words from her mouth, which eventually i found out to be not true because i got the correct answer with my own assumption and not her untrue details.

I've watched 2 episodes of Planet Earth so far and i don't want to continue! Please don't kill me ahma, gongz, jerlyn, emmeline, shaomin. I feel so sad after watching because it means i'm left with 9 more episodes. I'm seriously heartbroken. But still, i'll watch it eventually. I cannot tahan the beautiful shots of nature and animals. Birds of paradise are friggin funny. I was laughing while watching to myself. I shall find a photo online in the meantime.

Ok, found.
This male bird i saw got rejected by the female although it looked so pretty and ridiculous while courting her. He got depressed.

The one at the bottom is Damn funny. It can make it look like it's inflating and delfating itself.

I'll show you what else i saw on the 2 episodes!

You know how people say nothing can go above Mt. Everest? Apparently one species of birds/cranes fly over them to India and they take advantage of the warm air current to lift them up (geography, hmm.. haha).

The snow leopard is so damn rare and hidden in the Himalayas that there are so little shots about them and you could really see them close up and their intimate life (not sex man).

I feel like i sound like a teacher, a disgusting one who tries to act smart. Ok, anw it's damn cool. Go buy it or watch it on discovery/bbc, which is i dunno when.

see you!

2008-07-03T10:39:00.000-07:00

I just can't help but feel really disappointed everytime. My heart sank so deep it touched the Mariana Trench's seabed. That was lame but that was how i felt. How much effort does it take to hold a friendship. Apparently, not much to you you and you. I've given up and there's nothing i can do. Deep down inside i know, i may succumb to being close to you you and you again once i see you and then my heart sinks days after. I've learnt not to say bye to people because it could be a forever bye for you and them. I've said bye to my grandma but i know she'll always be alive in my heart. But for some people, it's worth it to say bye and thank you for all that you've given me. Laughter, a temporary friendship. Goodbye.

2008-06-29T22:27:00.000-07:00

GONGZ: glad you feel happy doing my hair. i feel guilty for not paying you. Lets spread 2G1C hahaha.

SHARON: really!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT! o... so there's nini also ahhaha. so funny. I just realised i haven get the pay ahhaha. you got already?

I haven update about my bd but im damn lazy. So many photos but shaomin has most of them posted up on her blog already. The jumping photos are damn funny ahha.

My necklace hit my face and you can only see if you zoom in. yucks.

Ah ma got invisible hands. I thought it's so cool so i went to try out the pose.

But apparently, only ah mas can get invisible arms.

Look at Ah Ma soar. i laughed like shit at this. Act i laughed at every jump photo we took.

We watched too much kungfu panda.

Thanks for the day.

Only one photo. Cathleen forgot her camera existed the whole day.

Emmeline and I went Bukit Timah to hike. It rained halfway for a while and i thought i was going to die. Damn tiring. We start to perspire like shit when we just climbed a few steps up the super steep slope omg felt so weak, seriously. Too bad we din get to see the hissing snakes but we saw monkeys and the giant forest ant ahhaha. Emmeline, snd me photos. I wana the photo of u being very scared. ahahaha. I cant upload my photos now cause dad took my camera to his workplace. The machines there are qt cool! I saw this video he took and they had robot hands that grab the bottle of axe oil. It moved qt fast and super cool la! i sound damn disgusting now i know.

I wana wish Vanessa an early HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Meet you soon to celeb woohoo! And congrats into getting into FASS!!!!!!!!! School mates! Thanks for the bangle too. hoho. Althought vanessa claims the birthday present has no surprise because i went to pick myself haha. We bought the same mango skirt! omg i hope we don't wear out together at the same time. And recently, i saw this woman wearing the same skirt at vivo. How terrible. I hate duplicates. What am i saying. They are everywhere. Fortunately the skirts aren't like Little Miss/Mr.

People who are free, go rent or buy vcds of Miss Potter and Neverwas. Beautiful movies. Although i got a lil lost in Neverwas initailly, i got it in the end. Im contemplating a top online now. hmm, somebody help me. I need comments. I always as pamela gongz shaomin or sihui hhahaha because i always see them online when im online.

I don't want the 1st day of school to ever come. so siannnn.
I hate school.

2008-06-20T09:11:00.000-07:00

EMMELINE: I so wana show you big brown fish. I think you'll scream inside the water and although i won't be able to hear, the fish can hear it loud and clear (do fish have ears? ok they don't). Ya, but they'll feel the vibration anw and it's so strong that all the fish swim away thinkin it's tsunami and i can't see any fish. grrr. So it's like all your fault.

GONGZ: The kuku is real ok!! you want me show u more? hahaha. No need eng notes, she won't even read them hahha. She haven't learn pythagoras, so i dunno how to do that qn. I feel so stupid.

SHAOMIN: thank you for telling me about the vid! ahahah. But a lot of my friends haven't watch! You can like see the kuku straight away when you come into my blog when that post was the 1st entry, but now it's not hahah. don't be sad.

I had my celeb with random today minus a few people. I don't blame you serene. I don't. I really really don't. Erhem.... haha. Apparently, innpoh and joan think i don't update my blog! Please! i had 2 recent ones already! It's considered a lot a lot! ahahha. So anw, thanks for the Chanel! But wasted my 5 bucks on my LA Girl ahahah. Thanks for movie too guys. RRRRAAAAANNNNNNDDDDDDDOOOOOOOMMMMMMM Ngo oi/io Lei (I love you in canto. Yes, i'm learnin canto now.)

Had a recent meetup with dick family w/o my wife and stupid maid who happens to forget she had to attend to us that day. So anw, lotsa photos but i shall only put the better ones up.

ok So you saw the photo of pamela and the door? I went in because i was curious then the door shut and when i wanted to go out, i realised there's no handle or knob. SO DISGUSTING! I shouted for pamela and i heard her doing smthn with the door so i thought there's hope. Then I thought i heard her say it "cannot open". Wa piang. So i had to do sign language with shaomin but i don't think she got what i mean. I was sayin i'm going down the steps, all the way down to i dunno where. I sweat like mad and i pant. Ok but i got to them again in the end. Turns out pamela wanted to trick me and lock me in, thinking i can open the door from inside. YUCKS. Scare me please!

Ok now, some photos from redang. Sorry, no fishy fishy.

Today, I saw 2 stuff i had the intention of buying. A Zara bag and Aldo shoes. Howww? Some one sponser half price or smthn please... I haven't even go to New York Solutions. Hah. Plus, i haven't bought the belts with emmeline yet. O yes, i metup with Jerlyn Gongz and Emmeline to shop on... tues. I love love love the bracelet from Forever21. But i din buy..... After gong and jerlyn left, emmeline and i walked from town to cathay and began taking pictures after looking at her short strapped bag. I have to say her camera hates me. In every photo, im blurred and she's totally focused. Gross. Eh, send me photos and hurry go buy memory card so can take a lot a lot!

On wed, Gongz helped me do highlights!!!!! I LOvE YOU GONGZ! For learning hairdressing so i can go find you to cut hair or do whatever with my hair. And i love you for not charging me!!!!

Neck is aching. O O O! Gurung just replied my email. She's on a road trip! grrr lucky girl i want too. Missing you kushina gurung!

ok i'm off. BYE!

2008-06-17T08:32:00.000-07:00

Thanks to Shao min's recommendation, you get to enjoy this.

2008-06-14T03:57:00.000-07:00

I got this off sihui's lj. http://mizian.com.ne.kr/englishwiz/library/names/zodiac/contents.htm What they said is so freaky because it's true and i sound like i'm a horrible person. Ok, emmeline shld know this. "Mercury people also have that nasty habit of reading the last page first. If you know a Gemini who has ever read a book from beginning to end without getting bored halfway through, send him to the Smithsonian as a curio."

To my dad: "Man or woman, Gemini is impatient with conservative stick-in-the-muds,"

To my sister: "or with people who can't make up their minds where they stand on particular issues."

To everybody: "the majority of those ruled by Mercury will have beautiful, crystal-clear hazel, blue, green or gray eyes that twinkle and dart here and there" -This is so not true. I have small disgusting borwn/black eyes. so sad. But i do dart.

To Jerlyn: "Any kind of routine can make a typical Geminian feel like a droopy bird in a cage with his wings clipped. These people resent drudgery and monotony almost fiercely." - OFFICE..

To everybody: "Usually, they aren't the most punctual souls in the world. The typical Gemini, however, always arrives late, not because he forgets the time, but because something caught his interest on the way and sidetracked him. The restless Mercurial nature demands constant excitement and change or the spirit becomes dejected and morose." - See, i have a good excuse.

To emmeline: "In spite of all the people around him, he shares his deepest emotions only with his one constant companion-his other twin self. The air is his element and his real home. He's a stranger to earth." - Do not think i share my secrets with others more than with you.

To Emmeline, Jerlyn, Gongz, Vanessa: "You'll find her a great pal. The Mercury girl will go along with you on anything from scuba diving to speed racing-bicycling or badminton." - Including swimming. heeheehee.

To everybody: "He may tend to repeat himself, but he won't allow you to do so, which quite naturally may irritate people." - I think so, but i dunno. I remember telling emmeline "You say already. dunno how many times. You don't remember ah?"

I returned from Redang! good trip. I definitely miss the buffet like mad. I can't believe i didn't eat more! Snorkelling trip's better than previous ones. The fishes are much nicer and bigger. I fed this 60cm brown fish bread from my hands. I got a shock but it was funny to see how it looks, although it's scary. Sharp pointed teeth and fat but really pretty. Keep staring at me and i thought it wanted to eat me. This sneaky fish with yellow mouth even bit my finger thinking it's bread. Can't show you the cut cause it's healing already haha. In a moment of panic, i hit a fish with my knee and it's like hitting a wooden table from underneath. I took pity on the fish immediately but i couldn't see which one was it. They all swam away and around in panic. Im burnt now. Redang is beauutiifull. But it's like a freakin 10 hrs ride. I'm thankful for the double decker bus with individual tv installed and massage chair included. I'll be back soon fishy.

2008-06-05T11:08:00.000-07:00

I have a list of things i want to buy now. Please ask me if you wana buy for my birthday. please please please!

SHARON: I hope u can get for me!

PAMELA: CANNOT FIND U ONLINE! haha.

SHAOMIN: goin hols on 10th! 9th cant. why ur hols start on 8th ahah. christabel goin overseas on 8th. alamak.

CATHLEEN: should be going orientation but not camps. siannn.

So anw here are photos i finally took with my long forgotten camera. Shaomin havin school and bijun's MIA and so only us. That's me directly below and christabel on the 2nd and all of us at the end. Too many photos that cannot be seen by the public because they are too informal and disgusting haha. Makes me laugh till stomach ache like mad.

Mum had been really lucky recently. Have been hangin out with her and sis. Weekends with dad and sis. Emmeline and i visited vanessa at her hse and we played wii. HAHA. mario kart rocks and tennis is cool. I could do the fast serve ball, like really lightning speed, wireless. hoho. And the game vanessa and i could never play till the next stage. THANKS FOR PRESENTS! I like ok. I hope u appealed to you-know-what ahah. majority wins. Then, tpy to jerlyn's hse. Mcspicy got smaller. I wasn't full after the meal which is not normal. So, ate rice and meat which her funny ahma cooked. thanks for apple. Finally, someone let me paint nails for them. thanks emmeline and jerlyn for trusting me haha. Nice right. At least nicer than emmeline's stripes and dots and funny patterns.

tired. i love this lesbian song. act not really lesbian but the title is. 'I kissed a girl'?? what kinda name is that. O did i mention i lovvve the GATSBY guy heh heh heh(yucks to emmeline. heh makes me sounds chiko). And Lee Jin Wook is yum, just check out Powerful Opponents/Formidable Rivals. ok, byee!

2008-05-29T23:03:00.000-07:00

SHAOMIN: yesyes! but hols not confirmed. 1st and 2nd week confirm can. gona hav hols?

GONGZ: eh, not only the wall. See the photo frames ahah.

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I keep getting pissed by people recently. WHY ARE THEY SO AGITATED AND HOT BLOODED?? So, i sent a sarcastic email back to yenyen and msg to richard.

Anw i'm so rad over jerlyn's news about gongzy gongz/ gongX. But, she's not updating us! If you're reading this, please tell me! Im so stokedddddd and i couldn't be more happy for you!

2008-05-26T07:35:00.000-07:00

Slpover at gongz's. The night was so wasted! And gongz had to go to bed the earliest again. AGAIN! gongz, you're always the 1st to slp, leaving me and emmeline behind to play the utterly boring SNAP. hahahahaha. The 1st round, i managed to snap once. The 2nd round, no1 snapped for anythn and the game ended in less than 50 seconds. horrible. Since gongz was the loser for the OLD MAID game she had a punishment. We stuck scotchtapes on her faces in photoframes and on cats' faces and made the shape of _____ in the middle of the wall hahahha. She still doesn't realize.

Im gonna help my sister full force with her studies. Eng and Chi specially, please wish me and her luck.

So anyway i dunno if Singapore Inline is ever gonna give me my pay because i heard i have to go back to work on sat and then i can collect my pay. SHIT CRAP. "hellow?" like what gongz will say. such assholes. And if im givin sister tuition on saturday i can't get my pay forever? Sharon are you reading this? I'm starting to hate them. What the hell is wrong with Richard.

I'm having a Msia trip sometime mid june or earlier or i dunno. I can't wait to get awayyyyyyyy. Dang, my neck still hurts after 2 days. ok, i need to do things i haven on my 'things to do before you die' list, bye.

2008-05-20T06:29:00.000-07:00

JOAN: student seow! hahahah.

GONGZ: ok i'll link you. advertise ur blog more hahah. i dont wana be a tutor i think i hate teaching now. but i don't mind being a high paid full time nanny; but i can't give any milk.

SIHUI: hello cukoobird. lemmi stay in your hostel room. i hope i can. yayyyyyy. but not everyday la. Don't lemmi catch you doing anythn dirrrrrrty.

YANNY: heyman! im ok. its been a week already ahahah.

I DON'T WANA GO CAMPS/ORIENTATION/SCHOOL! everyone go visit gongz's blog! ahhaha. It's too quiet cause no-one knows! Actually i know i just forgot and there's a good reason for it, im just lazy to say. Dang i wana go on a holiday soon. i must and i will. Who's going where? i know vanessa and christabel's going thai. tell me tell me. I so do not want to blog about my life so far, except for some stuff.

ok here goes.

Had a good time celebrating sookchan's and the man's birthdays. 'What happens in vegas' instead of 'NIM'S ISLAND'! so sad. I hope sookchan LOVES her metal hanging piece i dunno what you call that haha; and sihui with her BEAUTIFUL red bracelet (please do not wear on your foot!).

I love spending time with pamela, are you reading this son? Please do not reveal too much information pamela (on your blog or my tagboard) because of a valid and important reason (did i tell you?). I just remember laughing at her funny incidents with guy strangers, beating each other's butts, she getting all lesbian with me and i ccnt say anymore. Will miss you a lot a lot a lot.

Shopped with emmeline and gongz and gongz was being mad on that day. She thought she had tuition and so went off early leaving two of us behind. Then i saw her online in the evening on msn and she told me she forgot she din have tuition that day. HAHHA. siao. Im gonna let her cut my hair OMGGG. Since she learnt or rather, is learning hairdressing. I forgot if i did meet jerlyn. I don't think so. O hold on, yes i did. Sorry because i seem like im having a conversation with someone now. So 4 of us met up at novena one fine day long time ago i can't rmb when and we just chilled. played the AJ mmmchichi game (freakin funny and lamo game) and some other game. jerlyn was titled 'You are a man' haha and so many other weird and hilarious stuff we did. Please come novena more often.

I went vanessa's house to play wii!!! damn, i love the car racing game man! hahaha holding the wireless steerin wheel is so surreal. and the wireless tennis racket? hahahah. i sweat man. Bowling is good too but the car is ultimate! I wana play again nehneh! Anw, i really hope you get what you want. Do keep me updated ok, i'm worried and anxious.

What else.... East coast with dad and sister. Cycled. Good that i din lose anythn. I don't lose anythn with parents around hahah. Anw love hanging out with family outdoors since we don't usually get to. Next up, pulau ubin? But too bad me and dad love outdoors more than sister and mum., the ultimate homies. grrrr.

Ok all these happened within 2 weeks i guess. I kept some stuff out thou. Ok, i need $$$$. i need my chomel watch and good food.
better get going, i wana check out blogshops and auctions and shows. Dang, all thanks to gongz for getting me hooked on online shopping and new shows!

2008-05-09T01:32:00.000-07:00

Just to add on, i SUDDENLY realized i could be wrong about someone for the past 2 yrs. The person whom i chose to believe so well could be the asshole. Actually, i think i forced me to believe he was right. There were warnings! omg i feel so stupid. Ya, he's the asshole, ya. definitely, no regrets. The one i thought with the loud mouth was actually not! So the asshole now becomes the one i chose to believe 2 yrs ago. this is maddening! I was told it's a secret from now-asshole and then another heard bout it (i think she heard from now-asshole) and so i asked now-asshole, who was nearby at that time, "can say?????!?!?". Now-asshole: "say la!" !??@?!?@!??@#. f.
........... "I can't believe you trust A and not me!"
but i din even show or say i trust A?!!?
now i geddit.
A Show, just a show.
To influence as many as he can to trust HIM.
great.
i hope the the sky will fall on you.
i could totally relate to rihanna's 'take a bow' right now at this moment.

2008-05-09T01:24:00.000-07:00

GONGZ got me hooked on yahoo auctions and she act bid smthn for me OH MAN. i hope it fits if it comes and my mum wun say anythn. SWIMMING was good with emmeline and gongz, except for the touchy-talkandtalkandtalk-sticktogether-couple. i thought there were having sex in the water at the end of the pool when i was swimming towards them, but with their suits on.
i feel lazy again. i miss you too CATHLEEN but im seeing you later. XIANY tell me about cedarconnect (oooo) - catching or icebreaker or speech?!?!?

2008-05-07T03:04:00.000-07:00

EDUCATION?!?!? i thought bout it but the thought just vanish. ENGLISH is definitely out. And chemistry/biology? AHA. i saw joan's and hers was maths but my maths got last. o well.
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Hottie and nottie is not too bad. welcome home roscoe jenkin is the same.

ok lazy to blog already. bye.

i cannot believe this

2008-05-07T03:01:00.001-07:00

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75%

English/Journalism/Comm

75%

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69%

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69%

History/Anthropology/LiberalArts

63%

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2008-04-29T03:36:00.001-07:00

So, sat night as cathleen's was pretty good except that i couldn't watch freedom writers on her lappie or teevo. grr. I spent a bomb after coming home on sun afternoon. Wellll, you seeeee, we went to ecp on sun and overshoot our stop so took another bus back and it was so bloody hot. So, i suggested going to the shop me innpoh and joan went the previous time (BAD CHOICE BAD CHOICE), should had just stuck to the nearer one. got a bike with hole in the centre of the seat. changed bike eventually with cathleen because i was uber nice (her bike's smthn wrong). I checked if the locker's key is still attached to my shorts. Yes, o yes, i will be damn cautious not to lose it! Stopped at the beach. Yes, it's still there. Ahhhhhh, the water... So we went to put feet inside and i kicked the water and some seaweed stuff and cathleen. Sorry, dirtied your clothes. I looked down and OMGGGGGGGG WHERE THE FUCK IS THE KEY!!!!!! In the end, i'm convinced it dropped into the sea and i cannot get it back.

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I was constantly talking to myself inside my head and damn, was i pissed, at so many things i cannot spell out now at this instant. Ok so off i went to tell the uncle and goody well, i have to pay 25 bucks. At the end of the day i borrowed 26 bucks from cathleen and spent all my $$ from my piggy back, about 30 bucks. So i spent 56 bucks in 2 days for dinner, snacks, bike and FINE FOR LOST OF LOCKER KEY.
i wanted to cry damn bad because i was so sick of losing things. But i talked myself out of crying and just think that it won't ever happen again because im gonna let someone else keep all the important stuff for me next time.
EAST COAST PARK IS MY JINX. seriously.
my hp got wet the other time, thanks to cathleen's reminder.

I should perhaps get another new job. disgusting man.

SIHUI: never tell me you got NTU letter! anw, i just got few minutes ago. psychology. hmmm.

EMMELINE: eh horse racing i must check again msg me when your hp can work again.

JOAN: tel me when you get ntu letter. i dunno what i wana take now. crazy.

XIAOYAN: ooo ok link you later! thank you! triple As and i get only 60 bucks from the school, maybe too many pple scoring 3As and above.

JERLYN: is this one of you rare tagging spree? hahah. i tag you but you neh reply so i dun wan tag anymore. but i do read. so update more! include my name more often.

ok, gtg bathe and then CURRY FOR DINNER!!! yipppeee. and i have new romance books fromt eh lib. omg. i ccnt believe i act do read romance. thanks to PS I LOVE YOU.

you now, everytme i think of my grandma and start crying, i cant help but to think of my dad. Wouldn't it be 1 zillion times worse for him?
definitely.

2008-04-25T08:46:00.000-07:00

Had i known,
perhaps i shouldn't have gone.
Didn't know i would have felt that.
The familiarity, the scene, the people.
I'm sorry emmeline and jerlyn,
for being such a spoiler today.
sorry.

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Did anyone get anythn from NUS?
ANYONE?
PLEASE TELL ME.

2008-04-21T07:27:00.000-07:00

i didn't know a book could make me cry, or i probably have forgotten the last time i cried while reading a book. There's a vague memory though. ok, so i read PS, I Love You and it was uber sweet. i'm gonna watch the movie online now but i doubt it'll be as good as the book. I think i have turned into a romance book fan, o man, reminds me of vanessa. Haha. The other time i went library with her, she just took books which looks girly and nice and sounds romantic? hahaha. sorry for not meeting today. I have a gazillion things i want to do but i can't get my butt off my sofa. For example, start finding job, start meeting up with friends i haven meet since... i dunno when, buy fox clothes, buy more tees, go the racing course, go to jurong east swimming complex ... I have to go back NY and i hope stayover at cathleen's will be good. Cathleen, please be a good host. Have you contacted ali and sookchan already? ok i better msg you now.

i'm still very much involved in the storyline of PS and i could almost feel i was holly at times while reading the book. this is crazy. I cried like mad everytime i read it, ok, over exaggerated. just CRIED. and i felt like i could understand how she was feeling totally. OMG really scary maybe cause i know how it feels losing a loved one. whatever man.

i'm talking about a booK! omg. uber weird. so not me.
emmeline, i was contemplated whether to go to the photoshoot after we talked and i kinda feel like going but i don't like the idea of posing for people whom i dunno. sorry man. I could like imagine us laughin like mad or smthn. and then you'll say, wow you look so chio and i say you look not bad. hahah ok kiddin. i'll pay for photoshoot next time when im ready and we can all have a group photoshoot with the rest. eh go watch horse with me.

i see a flyin spider or a beetle on the wall next to the com. O MAN.
yuck.

2008-04-18T07:53:00.000-07:00

super belated but still, i have to put this on my blog.
-happy birthday XIANY and EMMELINE-

hope you seriously enjoyed your bd spent with me.
xiany! i tried shokudo already ahahah.

a lot of photos for emmeline's bd but super lazy to post up. we went jurong east swimming complex and o man the slide was super duper ultimate! lurvvve it. then to shokudo and gelare. played mmchichi game aha, suckers. we all are.

forgot to bring cam for xiany's bd. hey man, hope to see you wear the top soon! do you love it do yoou????

anw SHARON, gimme a msg! i lost your no.

2008-03-30T03:35:00.000-07:00

im uploading photos im uploading photos im uploading photos! o finally. but i cant have a photo galore because so many are soooooooo unglam. i'll find the prettiest. haha.

SHAOMIN: eh! no meetup ah? huh huh! nvm, after your japan trip. i mean after 1st may?!?! hahha. enjoy holidaying in japan ok. like gongz. im gona miss you guys! bon voyage.

JERLYN: hahaha. jerlyn sua ku man. IT buey hiao bai. not BUAY emmeline. then it'll become BU-AH hiao bai.

EMMELINE: seeing you type your name as emme makes me realize i NEVER EVER called you emmy before. it feels so weird saying and typing it out. emmeline is nicer. or pei. or pei si. which u prefer?

CATHLEEN: HEY MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i can book chalet now! because nus recieved my docs already. im happy and so relieved. haha. i hope goldsmith informs you soon. but i dun wan you to goooooooo.

let me update a little...

I seriously have STM. either that, or i have been blogging much too little. so little so that i cant relate to past dates' events. too many days have passed. First thing i remember is class bbq. ok lemmi find pics. Look at innpoh in the 2nd pic haha. but still chio la. don't worry. Kian hwee looks suffocated? Thanks for organizing. FYI, ALI AND SOOK CAN DID NOT COME. you guys reading this?

Then i started work at newton kindergarten. Only for 5 days, so mon wld be my last. woohoo. cant wait. like for any other jobs i had. i feel like a quitter. Seeing children brightens up my everyday thou. When they are so happy and energetic they look so cute no matter how they look and i cld immediately feel the energy rushing up in me. When they speak, i feel like i had an overdose of sugar and could not be any happier than that moment. When they are sick and down i feel sad and wanting so much to help them to be happy again but all i could do was speak and not do anythn. To sum up, i LOVE CHILDREN.

Had a meetup with maisie and yingtse! Is that how to spell yingtse's name? tzeyin yingtse tzeyin yingtse. get the drift? ahha. i forgot to bring my cam along but it was fun hanging out, being so aimless in town but still cont walking and talking. funney girls. They've become prettier of course. Maisie shld be reading this right? Please forgive me for the perfume incidence. haha. You see, we were trying to smell the roll on perfume at a store and i was holding it, so i put to her nose to let her get a sniff but instead, she came too close like qt sudden and it went into her nostrils. A HA. damn funney. So she cld smell it for the rest of the day. go wash your nostrils. haha. SORRY ! BTW, both of them became so niang! im such a disappointment. cldnt join for dinner, so, im qt sad. meetup soon okkk. NOT ANOTHER LEAP YR. haha. i promise.

im going swimming with dad on a weekly basis so it means we hit the pool twice already. going on my staying fit and becoming tan mission. But im waiting for vanessa to stop work soon so she can swim with me!! bishan bishan? i like.

O and to xiany, WELCOME BACKKKK from italy! never buy gelato for me? haha. Izit you din buy any souvenir then don wana reply me? its ok man! i forgive you. i wana eat yi da li mian (spagetti). I dunno if thats supposed to be funney ya but anw, i wish i cld go to nepal. seriously. BON VOYAGE to GONGZ GWEE XINLI and KWOK XIAO MIN. byebye! both visiting same country, japan. souvenirs pls! gongz, you promised us! ahhaha. althou we never help you with itinery, because you never snd me the email!! i wanted to be kind and caring towards you but you din let me.

Had a slpover at emmeline's with gongz. i'll put some pics up.

As you can see, gongz wasnt in any of the photos. Because she din wana wake up early morning to go cycling! lazy pig. Those are the most not umglam ones already.

my hp is being anal with me. no vibration how i survive.

Me and sister.

ok byebye!

2008-03-24T01:57:00.000-07:00

If you msged me on 23rd or 24th please do msg again after 7pm on 24th, which is today. so sorry and thank you! this is so shity.

2008-03-20T10:15:00.001-07:00

as u can see from my tagboard, i have some bhb friends.
EMMELINE: eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. shame shame babusin**
JERLYN: "
SHAOMIN: i hope we get to meet up on that lucky day aha. O i just spelt ur name as shaomn but i edited. sounds like one word name. eh qt nice don't you think.

too late to reply the previous tags.
O! i watch horton with emmeline and i found this picture.

Katie katie the weirdest and funniest and cutest and lamest character in it, but i have no idea who voiced it. everyone loves katie. she goes "ahhhhhh" for no reason and goes into hiding into the bushed behind her drifting like a ghost for no reason also. and why must it be held in the hand. mad. go watch!

went back ny again to get letters from ng and loh and gave out candies to tchers and talked to yixiu and picked up tennis ball (omg that guy was expecting me to pick up for him man, he just stood there waiting jsut because i was walkin pass. i hesitated but being a kind and caring soul, i went down the slope to pick it up.).

ya lor. o got to cathleen's hse after that and walked BUDDY! his shit is niceeee, i mean for a pile of shit, its a nice colour, and healthy, as cathleen says. hung arnd a lil mre, his bro played super nice enchanted piano tunes, searched for chalets, looked at her portfolio n found out that there were 7 HER in her painting. sorry for takin so long to realise. 7 DEADLY SINS! see! now i know haha.

i think im jobless for tooo long. too long,

2008-03-16T10:39:00.000-07:00

i cycled with emmeline today and now my byebye or "va-ja-ja" as quoted by her hurts. i love nus cca goodie bag and im super happy with it i've decided to go nus hohoho. IM STILL JOBLESS!

plus, i went Liquid K with soonheng and dickson then chilled at dick's hse and his friends came to stayover.

ntu open hse was with random clique minus cathleen, who always disappears and now has my umbrella with her, and yixiu who is always mia. ntu is ... . but i saw so many familiar pple!

smu with xiany (she has flew away!!!!!!!!!! im missing you already xiany. hurry get me my souvenir.) and emmeline(who's lateeee). Again, smu is ... .

went shopping with mum and sis one fine day last week and it was good man. didnt spend my $$ at all. aha. another fine day, mum n i wenta pick sis up frm her fren's hse but shoppin before that.

alsooo, went back ny with The Man, shihao and jinhan and yay, im gettin recommendation letter frm j.ng and another from b.loh. then they wenta play pool with kianhwee but i was doing my own errands in town before meeting them again and eating at lucky prata at lucky plaza! what a name man! pretty good food, maybe lucky food for lucky pple.

ok, i think those were all i did last week. super unproductive. no swimming because it keeps raining. global warming is getting from bad to worse. and i haven done my part i know. i need to take it to the next level man. watch and see. and i seriously wonder if i shld believe the end of US is coming. is there an end? How do scientists ever predict. i mean, how could they. ah crap, i dun really care, i'll just live everyday as it is, as happy as i can be. "mamase mamasa mamacoosa mamase mamasa mamacoosa ..."

2008-03-15T02:56:00.001-07:00

i met 3 bitches in one single day on thurs. One in nanyang toilet and then in office AGAIN. she's a staff. omg what a damn attitude prob. i keep raising my hands up in defence saying "okok, sorry sorry." "okokokokoookokokokkokokkok." "oooooooookkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk." because she keeps going on and on and on and on and on. please man, listen to others. she loves to argue with me man. then, i met bishan lib toilet bitch cleaner aunty. she thinks one drip of water would make pple fall on the ground so ask me take paper to wipe hands so i said "wo yao yong hand-dryerrrrrr." then she diam diam, so not as bad as the 1st bitch. The third is a taxi driver WHICH is an omg male chauvinistic PIG. 'EVERY BAD DRIVER IS A WOMAN.' 'MEN NEED TO DO EVERYTHING AND WOMEN CANT.' 'HIS WIFE IS STUPID.' 'HIS COOKING IS SUPER UBER DELICIOUS BECAUSE ALL HIS FRIENDS SAY ITS WONDERFUL WHEN HE BRINGS TO THE COFFEESHOP OR SOMTHING.' 'ALL HOTEL CHEFS ARE MEN.' and i can remember so many others. omg he got on my nerve. middle finger pointing, throwing paper in his taxi then leaving. he was bad-mouthing his woman for 30 seconds can you believe it? i mean, why don't he be a hotel chef since he keeps praising his food and why are you a taxi driver and my aunt works in a bank doing accounting. stupid dickson still talk to him. the worst taxi experience i've ever had. and i don't think he realised i was beating my chest so loud and yawned while he was complimenting himself because he's too into himself! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

hello, i am testing the new msn app. hmm, so many spelling errors. ok this is supposed to be my 'short' title.

2008-03-04T07:37:00.001-08:00

so, anw, i guess today's mine and christabel's suay day. so 4 of recess gang members of suppsoed to meet up. then, shaomin scalded her hand. take care take care!!! cook soup till like that. ahah. ok so no more pub. then, pamela had an appt which she totally frgt til last min and christabel was out already in the office so ok, i went back office to meet her and jerlyn and others. then i talked to edward woo, hoho and he asked whens my results comin out (everyone's askin! grrr). And we talked some more. Then jerlyn had to OT (hahaha) and me and christabel went off. We caught leap yrs and we went into the wrong cinema and we were so sure that the couple took out seats so we were totally embarrassing ourselves. luckily, it was dark? or.. not that dark yet. and maisie and her friend was like beside us, sitting already. man, i told her we were going to the same cinema. Then the girl from another couple was telling me my ticket says cinema 7. Yea, i said and i showed the couple at 'our' seats. "see?" i held out the ticket in my hands like how police would show their id card or badges. and then i realized O.... so, we are supposed to be in cinema 7!!!!!!!!!!! and that was unfortunately, cinema 9. and so i big goodbye to maisie, my long time no see friend.

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but we met after that to go hme together! are you reading this man? good to see you again! so sorry bout always pangsehing for 4 years ahah. Thats why we met on the leap yr! it makes no sense at all. we took 65 back hme and i walked across little india. ok thats all for today. i feel like im writing a storybook. a lao pok storybook. ok see you!

2008-03-03T02:54:00.000-08:00

Cathleen: how could you ask pple to see my unglam photos then say u love me. eeeew. but my 15 laps not continuous leh ahhah is it good still? u can reply my tags on your tagboard on your tagboard and your tags on my tagboard on my tagboard. heeheehoho.

The Man: man, the man, i hope i get a job at mof if i dun get vanessa's one. i wana work with friends and eat with friends for lunch ahha. what happened to your lj man why you abandoned it?

emmeline: eh you noe i dun dare to msg you because you might not reply, not like me. you're just like jerlyn! jerlyn, don't deny. i'll buy you real comfy purple tights real soon.

Joan: because i assumed sookchan will stand beside me? o o o hahahha, im gonna get slapped by her.

let me try to add photos.

.
.o ok, you wana see pamela's face?

i have a lot of her butt shots in my com.

please do not zoom in on my face!

ok gtg.

alll the best for friday guys.

2008-02-24T07:50:00.000-08:00

not all random mates were present and this photo is my new fav because we all took the shots one by one and then cathleen cropped everyone into one single photo. i was supposedly tickling someone's chin but it turned out to become me tickling joan's nehneh. serene's and sookchan's head look damn weird. deformed. haha. eh stupid innpoh and yixiu. thanks cathleen i wana learn photoshop.

Sihui: ask me out when you and ah ma meetup! o o you wana see ivay's baby? i want also. but... u ask her? ahhaha. i will pull you pants fi you pull mine and why ah ma become lao tao again i thought she became hip already.

emmeline: i miss your purple tights. please buy again........ please. eh nobody want to go swimming with me. hurry take leave. o and i like your name as pei. dun need to change. big watermelons emmeline.

Sheng: eh okok i shall change you blog add. sorrysorry im very lag.

Dickson: yea man the one teaching econs. did i answer your question before? cause sound very familiar.

Shamin: ok updated! hahhaha. i still haven buy ipod case you know!!!!!!!!! cant find one that i LOVE. so picky. when are you bringin us to daybed! o all the best for exams? tests?

Vanessa: didja update your blog? yours also stagnant. ahah. working's great. because i've ended my contract yay!!! but now it seems like i have no friends cause everyone's working.

Wanru: ya long time no see my friend! became prettier? but not as pretty as me!!!!! hohohoh. ok maybe i'll go for next guides gathering ahha.

abrupt ending? i wanted to end the post with the tags. more photos to post anw, thats what i always say but i cant help being lazy. i wana go swimming. anyone anyone? i need new partners. my old partners are busy with workworkwork. ok c yu guys.

2008-02-18T21:56:00.000-08:00

OMG i have to answer calls now and its freakin me out! seriously traumatised by two fellas. stop scolding me because you don't like the hospital service pleaseeeeeee. omggggg. can the staff please come back sooooooooon. helpppppp.

2008-01-24T06:39:00.000-08:00

i am sad and scared.

2008-01-16T07:47:00.000-08:00

CATHLEEN: im blogging!!! haven't seen you guys for quite some time! eh heard about your depressed nicks on msn. quit la. come join me the unemployed clique. and when shall we meet!!!

SHARON: woah emmeline's gona be gloating when she sees that you said she's hot. what bout me man. why din you come to tcc after the arena!!

WX: eh i wana bash up your friend. not you so don't worry. anw you know who.

THE MAN: i like your new livejournal. not so wordy ahhaha. but i hate to click on comment.

JERLYN: eh its ok. how you know its bout you! no la.

im qt tired of blogging already maybe because i haven been keeping the momentum going and i've broken my promise about posting photos of my holiday, xmas and ny gathering? and there's some with shaomin and pamela. haven't been using cam lately. maybe i'm not the photog kind of person but i do like appreciating photos.

ok, so, i got this cheese job which i have to interview people who ate the cheese already so i'll start on friday. and i so do not want to travel around singapore. come on, bus fares and mrt fares are like #(@*(&@*. maybe only for people who are pretty much broke or thrifty. but then again, we needa spend to keep the economy on-going. right, that's econs! speaking of that, i had qt a few nightmares about the day i get my A levels results. i pretty much got D for every single subject and it freaks me out. i woke up feeling so afraid. dreams are the opposite of reality? so either i'll fail like crap or i'll pass with flying colours which i doubt will happen. my oh my. i don't even want to think what i'll wear on that day. maybe some loser clothes like yellow top and purple tights(like emmeline's). hoho.

gongz's birthday was fabulous although we met up pretty late at night. the cafe had a pub upstairs and its so comfy i'll definitely go there again. the chicken chop is mmmmm(gongz's signature sound). and at least heineken is better than tiger. guinness is next. not so bitter, according to my mum.

my mum's nagging at me everyday telling me to get a job but man am i picky. im sorry mom but i think im not all grown up yet. actually, im kinda like cathleen but maybe im a tat better cause i can buy food myself and i do not need someone to buy for me. hahaha. and i met yixiu at art friend the other day after a long while since we've met and i really missed her man. yo xiu are you reading this. basically, i miss random!!! and innpoh?!?!? whre are you? changi airport T3?? hahhaha. will visit you someday. cause i haven't had the chance to eat kaveri's curry man!

and recently, i met emily in my lift. super duper extremely shocked to the core. if i told you, you know what happened. first the tummy then the hair then the face ahhhhhhhh!!!

qt a bit to update so i dun need i will. i needa be darker. but i think im getting used to the fair skin. hmm. o and i need to get a base coat asap so my nails wun turn yellow because i've got addicted to nail polishing. without them, the nails feel so dull. to think i love my natural plain coloured nails so much before this. but i still like short nails so son't ask me why i don't keep long nails!!!

i do not want feb to eever ever everr come.

2008-01-10T02:22:00.000-08:00

omgoodness i fucking feel like exploding.

2007-12-26T08:50:00.000-08:00

hello guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
thanks for poppin' into my life.

i suddenly rmbed this photo which was un-finished. im so lucky im not anythn. yet. hah.

i decided not to watch i am legend due to many negative comments from friends. thanks guys for helpin me save money cause im broke so im totally dependent on my parents now. so useless please. maybe i can get a job for tryin out beds by sleepin on them and givin my comments? ok. nvm.

2007-12-18T08:37:00.000-08:00

Did i mention there's this chao fatty aunty at gurney drive up in penang who indirectly cause a splinter in my thumb. wa lao fei aunty. talk rubbish. i just got reminded of her so randomly and im full of anger now and i so wish to bash up that asshole from HCI with the initials of what.. er... cant rmb. wait, have to... its er... i forgot that bastard name but its wx's friend. ok done. o what an entry.

2007-12-14T07:12:00.000-08:00

jon mclaughlin.

i love his vocals.

i would definitely want him to sing on my birthday.

or at my wedding.

or... be my..

ok enough daydreaming. i mean nightdreaming.

lazy to blog. byee!

2007-12-10T19:13:00.000-08:00

hello hello. i came back from holidays already!!! penang's chocolate boutique rocks my socks off man. ok, i duno why i said that. so unlike me, its so childish. photos not yet uploaded to my com so none for the entry yet. but soon!

JOAN: i only know how to play the basic mahjong game. very lousy one. haha. we go your house play mahjong la!

SHAOMIN: eh! but you so busy. when your xams end? then we ask you out. anw i hope im gettin the red phone you have. soon soooooooon.

PAMELA: eh enough. i kept thinking about results next year these days and got so scared oK! and now you're remindin me when im not thinkin of it!! so whre's your blog? and your blog shop?!?!?!? ahahhaha. i wana buy stuff leh! can you sell clothes please.

SHARON: heyman! not very educational la. just sme brief stuff. because i thought it was damn cool. you stil go amk lib? ahhaah. go study for university stuff. then must bring laptop.

CATHLEEN: since you're away on hol, i can take this opportunity to humiliate you. ok kiddin. im not so bad ok. AND IM NOT SO UNGLAM!! YOU ARE TOOOOOO!!! update your blog boit your holsssssss okkkkk. with photoooossss.

VANEH: i hope the day we meet to swim, it doesnt rain, or it'll all be your fault. anw, you reply damn sloww! hurry, i needa give you chocs. must tel me bout your prom.

BEE: omgoodness yes yes yes i am honoured. but you have to visit more or else i scold you here you also don't know. my hate letters for you here. u believe? of course not right. ok please create blog and i'll help you create account. hahaha. so i wil now your username and password and i can blog for you. can i? pleaseeeeee. i wun put ugly photos of you. omg im so xcited already. ok reply my msg.

ok, so this is a boring entry.

let's see.

i left my umbrella at mindcafe ytd and i have to get it back today and nobody's going with me. luckily dun need to jay walk. photos at mindcafe with cathleen.

o yes, and asshole is somebody's name. i seriously pity his ex girlfriend, girlfriend or future girlfriend. he cannot be trusted at all. what kinda mouth does he have? as long and wide as a thousand legged worm? asshole man. guess i have to check friendster for any hate testimonials for me now. asshole.

i was thinking recently, that, 'they' are maybe hypnotised. clue: hope. its so weird that i think all the blogs are talking about the same issue for every entry they enter. its so freaky. whats wrong with their mind man. i get a lil scared to be friends with them, which makes me sad because i cannot lose her.

haven been to msn recently, for the longest time ever, other than the time my msn had a virus attack.

ok, now, here, i shall wish
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO.....
YIXIU (9DEC) AND JOAN (11DEC).
HOPE YOU ENJOYED 10 DEC!!!!
ALTHOUGHT WE DIN GET TO TOUCH FOUNTAIN.
WA LAO.

cathleen bought a shirt with a cartoon which is yixiu's super duper lookalike and joan had a notebook which can be stripped. ahhha. maybe she molested it at home while sleeping.

o, and gongz,
HAPPY PROM DAY TODAY!
please show my photos of your prom dress since you dun wan us to go visit you before your prom.

photos next time!
goodbye.

2007-11-30T08:44:00.000-08:00

Cenote, a type of freshwater sinkhole usually found in Yucantan Peninsular and some nearby Carribean islands. A term derived from low land Maya to refer to any location that has access to groundwater.

(with reference to wiki)

the above is one type of cenote.

Im hooked onto the Maya underworld, but im not sure if im brave enough to explore it, if i ever could.

ok, this is damn cool. the cloudy stuff is actually sulphurous cloud caused by decomposing matter. It actually looks like the ground so divers might thought they are landing but eventually, they sink through it into the heavier saltwater beneath the freshwater above the cloud.

ok! go search up on it. im going off to play mahjong.

nite!

2007-11-21T07:34:00.000-08:00

going back to get my new favourite song, the fugees, 'ready or not'. this is the remix. not as good as the original but er, it stil has the soulful voice in it. ok and of course, u can pause it immediately after u enter my blog. i WILL NOT FORCE YOU MAN. ok. can i update another time? can can? please? ok thanks. and izit weird to reply tags that are super long outdated? o noooooo...

2007-10-02T05:06:00.000-07:00

SHARON: omg in so sorry! din even wish you all the best for prelims when you wished me. nvm, As is more impt so its not to late to say. check your blog! Hah.

SHAOMIN: guess what, i just spelt your name as shamoin. eh, are u a chi? haha. PAMELA'S PRESENT! disgusting leh. we are all so busy. all your fault.

LEONA: ok added! ahah. act im typing this before adding.

LIMIN: thanks! i was damn stressed out for prelims cause din touch on everything, just like mid yrs. mug hard and see you arnd our neighbourhood. haha.

CATHLEEN: no comments.

VANESSSSA: eh! you got update meh?!??! rarely right. hah. still say me. yawn what yawn. go and sleep la. haha. stupid you, now i cant swim all because of you!

HUIYEN: EH! i was damn shocked. i din xpect. thanks anw. eh but your maths pro leh. A/B rite? eeeyer. i better beat you.

finally im blogging. i wasn't supposed to in the first place but since i was free for like 30 seconds a few mins ago, i decided to blog. stupid temptation. life after prelims is busy busy busy, but obviously that's not true for cathleen's case. she herself claims she's pretty slack. omg. horrible girl. i'e been slping late, waking up early. well, because i've been taking afternoon naps. so today, i forced myself to wake up after one hr. If not, 3 hours will be wasted taking "nap".

i so wanted to update after prelims but i just couldn't find time. and now, i just want to say i am missing mrs serene ng. although she only taught me a year and we weren't close and she scolded me before, she's definitely a nice and sincere teacher. i was heartbroken at the news of her death and reflected on how my life had been spent so far. just a few days ago, i received news of two grandmothers who passed away. well, not mine, but those of my friend's and friend's friend. On the same day, i was reading a book about life made simple and views on life and death. Coincidentally, my sister asked me to read her exam compre which was about life and death. i grew suspicious. Of? of what kind of signs im getting, and why do all of them come on the same day? funney. and i went crazy thinking i will die the next day but obviously i din. Jerlyn, hope you're not depressed anymore. but i guess crying is a channel for you to kind of relieve your burden. well, at least for me. And Xiany, don't be xian/sian anymore, take care and don't think too much. She will definitely rest in peace. your mum's really nice btw haha.

yea ok, so continuing about my life after prelims, i spent two days helping out emmeline at her school with art so 2 nights gone. and then ah ma's bd celeb at white tangerine. Oh and before that, jerlyn gongz and i bought her present but unfortunately, we have to go down to bugis one day after our prelims to change her present because her hips are too huge. ok, im kddin. "eh ah ma, the size of my hips are almost the same as yours!" Then, it was studying at amk lib. i saw someoneeeeee butttt i din approach. o well. hahah. and one ny couple. well, i din xpect that girl to be of such character. thanks to emmeline.

so, after all those, it was back to school. its crazy. i got really tired and my backache came back and i had flu the last few days, but it was occasional on each day.

and suddenly, im lost for words. k, back to what i was doing.
study hard everyberdy.
and,
happy belated children's day!

o ya i have photos.

super many unglam ones and i've decided not to post them for privacy purposes and in due respect for my friends. see, im so nice. buy me something friends.

2007-09-09T01:25:00.000-07:00

gee, i wonder when will they play this fall out boy hit on radio. or, have they??!? lost touch with radio. ogay, back to studying!

2007-09-03T08:12:00.000-07:00

im f-ing mad now. reading urban geog notes is so torturous. but don't take it the wrong way. i love geog, but the english totally sucks like omg. it wasted my time trying to acknowledege the real meaning of the sentence and rephrase it in my own way. i mean, emmeline doesn't even understand when i asked her. so after 15 mins of thoughtful strenuous thinking, i finally (thank god) got the whole idea of the one fuckin sentence. imagine one thick stack of notes. omg.
alrite, on a happier note, mum bought me a new bag and plain tees today. man, my mum is the best. ok thats so superficial but seriously, i love her deep down within my heart. thanks mum. ok i guess i shld cont reading geog. im determined to finish the set of notes tonite. please please wish me luck. i definitely shldn't go for a blood pressure test after reading urban geog notes or results would be disastrous.

shaomin! haha. i think its the bao ying part that is weird and disgusting la. thats why funney. eh o ya, cut ur fringe yourself leh! hah.

leona! whats ur blog add?!? i rmb you havin one! o really glad to see you too! nice teeth! haha. forgot to tel you.

i cant believe im bloggin so much these few days.

2007-09-02T08:33:00.000-07:00

hi xiany, nice to see you on teachers' day. pangseh me and jerlyn ah. go hme. disgusting. must meet soon.

hi shaomin, funney to reply you now. erm yea i went ndp. hahha. our faces so fat.

hi ah joan, so weird to reply you now too. yea marina wave. and thanks fer telling me slums are illegal cause in the notes someone typed slums are legal. hmmmmmm.

hi cathleen, we are so petty. rite. dun make me angry! and i wun make u angry too. haha. petty pple dun flock together. im kiddin. cant believe i spit everythn out to you that day. volcanic eruption.

so lazy. im damn lazy. lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy.

ratatouille is superb. looks are deceiving man. im loving the main rat's brother. wa lao i think he's just bloody funney. studying is ok. not really productive. but lib is good. i can concentrate better. at least i wun keep walking to the kitchen opening the fridge looking for food when i know there isn't any nice food inside. and then i'll open cupboards and then the fridge again and then cupboards and then fridge again...

me shaomin emmeline went back cedar on teachers' day. it was a great. thou i regret not taking more pictures due to my laziness. so i got most of them from shaomin the enthusiatic one. haha. the concert was like sai please. WHO WASN'T BORED DURING THE PRINCIPAL'S SPEECH MAN. so we left when it hasn't ended. met other ex cedarians and we talked took photos ate. jerlyn xiany came late and that horrible gongz didn't come. studying in AJ. EEYER. but anw good, keep it up. at one pt in tme we were talking bout 881 and apparently, shaomin says my imitation of may and choy is really good. ok nah she din say that. she just said its funney. "ni men hui you ni men de bao ying." and then there was "gan die...." can u hear it in your head? hahah and picture the scene? man, disgusting. seriously, i dun mind watching it the third time. and i dunmind watching ratatouille the second time. PROVIDED, the tickets are free. like someone treats me or smthn. hmm.

rite, back to geog.
needa mug harder and more intensely!
hardcore!

2007-08-27T06:45:00.000-07:00

watched 881 for the 2nd time today. man. its good. this time, i cried even more and laughed even harder. i realised i've caught the serene's laughter bug. u noe, her laughter sounds like heavy fast breathing and you can perhaps imagine the nose shit comin out of the nose. ok whatever. so today in the cinema i was doing that for the whole movie! disgustin. just for a few moments i laughed normally. damnit.

and when i was on my way hme with mum at novena busstop this chao ah ma spat at me wtf. i almost shouted at her but i hesitated after knowing she's mentally unsound. hmm. whats her prob man. o yea, mentally unsound. damn gross. i went hme to wash my face.

i love mingzhu sisters to the max.

last sat, me dad and sis went to night safari. woohoo. i felt totally refreshed. the fresh air. and it seemed like an early dark morning, just like how 3am looks like. and since that day onwards, the owl became my new favourite animal, other than the giraffe. and so when i went lib with emmeline on sun, i wenta look for books on owls. man. they are darn pretttyyyy! i wana be like harry potter. i mean i want his snowy owl! gorgeous.

neeeda get down to work.
why wun anyone wana go lib with me tmr?
just tmr?!?!?
im so not independent.

go tze yin.
go prelims people.

2007-08-23T06:18:00.000-07:00

OMG.
I DREAMT OF GRANNY.
she looks utterly thin.
weak.
just like the way she looked when she went.
shrunken and bony.
its horrible and painful to watch her that way in my dream.
the dream is weird.
but could it be she, her spirit really entered my dream?
i hope so.
she caressed my right cheek with her trembling hands.
i held it and i think i cried.
it was weird because i knew in my dream she was supposed to be dead.
she was on my sofa.
seriously shrunken.
is she really here.
is she going back soon.
are you beside me now?
can i hold you.

just a few days ago when my teacher mentioned ttsh and people going there to perform for the elderly as music therapy, i almost teared i swear but i was cool. the whole scene came flashing back in my head. i missed the times i rushed from school to the hospital. and then my dad goes there everynight till late to just be by her side. music therapy allows them to forget their troubles, their pain. im glad she's gone. her pain will be gone. i hope she's healthy now. almost one full yr has passed. i hope she visits me in my dream tonight. this time, i'll hug her. i must. and play the game we used to play. and watch her watch the sunset after eating. let her watch me eat.

i wana feel your hand.
i hope it isn't so cold now.

2007-08-18T09:19:00.000-07:00

HEHLO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DECIDED TO BLOG SINCE IM ONLINE PLUS I HAVEN BEEN GOOD UPDATING.
this year, i caught 4 really great movies.
not according by rank,
harry potter
simpsons
881
TRANSFORMERSSS.
ok ok, i have to rank transformers top.
PLEASE DUN BE SAD SERENE,
(she hasn't watched.)
you'll watch soon. on TV!

speaking bout 881,
some secondary school freaks, idiot freaks, were sitting next to me and when the sad part came on, when the girl was dyin and going bald, they went "yao si le, yao si le."- going to die. AND "botak botak" and they laughed. WTF!?!??!?#??E>:> OMG YUCKIESSSSS. i couldn't concentrate at all! i could have cried more but because of them, only a little. ruin the atmosphere for me please. ya whatever.

ok just a few days ago, i think wed, yep, me and sihui saw sandhya (YES SANDHYA!)- the one from 4c, majella plus julia. and FINALLY, i saw julia's bf. yay. anw i din talk to sandhya. sorry man. ya, like she's gona read my blog. hmm, but who knows. hahaha. o man. i fell in love with the pair of converse shoes sihui tried on and another pinstripe pair online. goodness... please, someone, pleaseeee sponsor me.

o yea, then came a big news about johnny toh in the newspaper. even my non cedar friends know bout it. hah.

the things i talk about are super brief and not in order because things come to my mind just like that. and i think i was supposed to talk about this now. just today the lib aunty was saying that BMW equates to big mouth woman and the other aunty's bicycle equates to mercedes. hahha. she's hell funney. the other aunty is as hilarious, calling smebody "the nehneh". i think she can be friends with cathleen. O YEA, I SAW CATHLEEN TODAY! CATHLEEN! I SAW YOU! AND I KNOW YOU KNOW I SAW YOU! AHAHA. actually we talked la. too bad i din see yixiu. i shal name today a weird day. earlier on, i mean yesterday morning (since its already past 12), i received super duper oober random messages from joan and serene. first came serene's - it went smthn like " i haven pay you for the ticket also. pay you tmr.... .... the bus is full of aunty and children, i am the only teenager, i feel like ....". Joan's was "see how first... raining mah...". I DIN EVEN MESSAGE THEM! oh hell. ahhhaa. and today, emmeline saw blood on the toilet seat in the lib and the blood kinda left a trail of smeared blood from the toilet to the floor outside until the carpet. eeeew. dun you think its super super weird? one aunty was guessing maybe someone had a miscarriage. my mum tot pretty true because she saw news about smeone flushing the baby down the toilet bowl. wth. hahah. im not gona believe that. grr. i really wana know the truth.

turning back time, i was at the ndp parade. the goodie bag is greatttt. we got to choose bag colours and the goodies rocks please. i got my giraffe hat but a ugly orange yuckie star. i wanted white. emmeline wore her lion hat with me while walking to marina sq and we got commented by a few pple. hahahha. eh but they said "wa giraffe, so big and .....(i cant rmb, perhaps elegant)". and i shouted "THANK YOU". rite. my sis was being a spoilsport since she din wana wear. eeeyer. afraid we wld embarrass her. she had her latest dinner so far in her life and looked pretty sleepy. damn funney. EH TZE YE, DUN CALL ME DISGUSTING. o yea, she said she heard the hosts asking us, the spectators to do the KALLANG wave. HUH!?!?!??! its supposed to be marina wave! rite??? i seriously heard marina please. and it was fun doing. everyone arnd me really did it and i was glad man. just that my sis din scream. yucks. HOW COULD YOU! its marina wave ok. how could it be kallang. yucks.

71 more days to As and i really duno what am i doing now. homework all the long. oh my shit i haven write a single piece of notes. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. fuck la. im damn pissed now. speakin of shit, innpoh said "speak of the shit" instead of speak of the devil. how funney. ahahha. but she know that its supposed to be devil la. she said "shit" so fast i immediately thought she said wrongly. speak of the shit is the new name for some arrogant rich freak. damn yucks ok. im never gona say hello to him ever again. unless he says hi to me.

alright. cant rmb what else am i supposed to say.
im really really worried about my stm illness.
howwwww.
izit because i choose not to rmb the things i find minor or izit because i really suffer from stm?
to me, i think its because i only focus on things i want and like to remember and notice.
ok, i hope its true.

ok, PHOTOS!

EH YOU DUN LOOK OLD LA. I LOOK LIKE I-DUNNO-WHAT.

PLEASE TELL ME WE DUN LOOK ALIKE. cause we don't!
emmeline's lion and my super duper nice giraffe.

of course giraffe's nicer than lion.

duh.

the other day gongz told me a disgusting joke/riddle. its about bao. can u remind to tel you guys? it really disgusting and i found it crazily funney. hahah. if you guys dun find it funney, means you're weird or maybe cause its told by me. grr.

heard news about yet another student being pregnant. she had an abortion. heyman, my age and yet she's damn smart. huhhh. guess its temptation huuh. so many of such sexual cases these days. just in the sat's newspaper, a man was charged for raping his daughter. HAIYA. OMG PLEASE. grrrrrrrrrrrr. gross. i cant tolerate this kinda nonsense. my father rocks like shit please. ahhaha. i hope he bring us to night safari soon. and buys me my converse shoes.

LAOSAI: EH KIANHWEE YOU ARE LAOSAI. act you have another name. but i ccnt say. you are worse than laosai man. stop asking sookchan the qn u always ask ok. disgusting.

SHAOMIN: eh started reading harry potter not. can i tell you the ending? please laaaaaa.

JOAN: hahahahah. stupid kianhwee dun wan to believe us!

LIMIN: thank you!!!!!!!! i must get on to the honour roll. well, but no confidence. ALL THE BEST FOR PRELIMS TOO FARRER PARK RESIDENT!

SHARON: heyman! din see you at amk lib anymore! why? come la. ahhah. run and chiong to chop table. ahha. i never try before leh. maybe one day. STUDY HARD TOO!

XIANY: thanks beautiful fren. you are truly wooly beautiful. because you praised me. eh! who says i tel cocky jokes! you are the one lor. liar man you. study hard man, may we study together someday. tpy mac noisy lehhh.

i hope i get up early tmr morning.

2007-08-03T09:04:00.000-07:00

JOAN: YUCKYYYY!!! what? crazy dun mean seow joan! so not beautiful. ahahha. kiddin kiddin. joan is beautifuL! like me.

SHAOMIN: eh u noe the ending of the harry potter book already? ask me please. hah. o ya! i must rmb to visit ur shopblog!

CATHLEEN: how dare you. so mean we are both annoying? eeeeyer. cathleen, tell me ur secret soon ok. hah. but nvm, i think i will frgt bout it tmr. hahaha. take care gagoo?

PAMELA: eh! no chance to wear the bracelet yet. haha. how much izit? haha. ur bd i oso snd you thru mail? bubble wrap stuff into mailbox. hahah.

3rd aug

those who din go for film fest missed out qt a bit man.
i have to admit the two films were pretty good.
the first was romance comedy but endin was pretty sad.
i so wanted them to be together!
and then everytime we see kianhwee we wld think of laosai.
wa lao damn funney.
basically almost everythn in the show is funney.
i even saw myself, yixiu and my class guys.
OMG MANNNN. I WANA WATCH AGAIN LAAA!
we told ms loh the lantern was made by wenzhong and she asked how he made.
so innpoh told her use 4 ikea wooden frames.
hah.

omg ya and i din noe the photo we took on a certain day was for the film fest thng everyone got. so my face was super horrendous.

back to the second show.
'recurrence'
bloody scary show please.
basically almost everygirl in the LT screamed like mad and guys behind me were laughin their asses off.
after one scary scene i pretty much faced serene and covered my ear.
so i couldnt catch the remainin parts of the show.
lucky me.
we were scared stiff after the show.
SLEEP WELL PEOPLE! ahha.
mr kwek damn funney please.
couldnt hear what he was saying.
"mr kwek, very scary lehhhhh". i was whining.
and he said it's all part of the imagination thng thats why scary.
basically, the show is good for die hard horror fans. ok no, not die hard, they wun even find it scary perhaps.
it was good.
but for people like me, i'll have to rate it 0/5.
for people who love horror, it wld be 4/5.
not bad?

me innpoh serene spent the day after school decorating.
hilarious decoration.
maybe i'll post photos after getttin from innpoh.
innpoh, you took photos rite?
had fun la.
thanks guys for all.
blowing balloons was fun to me but clearin them is a torture.
speaking of clearin,
MY WATER BOTTLE GOT LOST AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
grrrrrrrrrr.
shld b thrown away.
curse the itchy hands.

live bands played durin the film fest.
the outside one is worse than our school's.
our school's sang my favouritest favouritest songs.
truly madly deeply, more than words and the closin time song.
so i was singin along to all of them.
hold on 'closin time' was sung by the outside band.

im thinkin bout deco again.
funney.

long day short sleep givin me the ache.
or rather, pain.
howhowhowhowhowhow.

yixiu serene got sick recently. take care. please do not spread any virus to me ok. i awnt to go school. about 50 more days to prelims. wait am i rite? i think lesser days.
i feel like listening to live bands now.
shall go find a new cool hangout then.
gotta let my body rest.

bai.

2007-07-28T20:53:00.001-07:00

heylo. im gona blog for like one min.
ok here goes.
i got really really happy when i received pamela's mail.
thanks for the bracelet man!
i was kinda shocked when i saw it.
budden, hey, it was qt cool when i look longer.
haha.
hope you get to open ur shopblog next tme!
fri and sat were mad days.
while others were muggin in school,
yea we were surrounded by them,
me innpoh serene were chiongin deco stuff.
how timely.
makes my blood boil.
why the fuck are we doing them?
the prob is not how early we got the task.
i mean march???
when june's xams were comin?
ya so the prob is WHY HAVENT WE STEPPED DOWN?
fucking stupid.
i hate stupid people.
so i attended gp on sat, then did deco with them and met up with emmeline.
speed shopped at the central.
well, she did, not me.
i got pretty blind walking arnd.
took her art photos.
damn a lot.
and came to my hse.
so blah and she went and i tried to find songs online but i got so slpy my head kept bobbing up and down in front of the com.
i couldnt tahan anymore so off i went to slp.
ok lib later.
but hell its rainin!

la nina.

2007-07-25T04:22:00.000-07:00

im so tired physically and mentally.
i duno when my ache will ever end.
perhaps its permanent.
parhaps its sme disease.
mentally because i always have to deal with ridiculous insensible immatured people directly and indirectly.
and then i get so mad i perhaps will be on the verge of crying.
then suddenly last night, i missed my grandma so much i started tearin on my bed.
and today as well.
but i can't exactly blame the large no. of old people staying in this area.

i dun understand why he can be so disorganized.
why din he assign work while thinkin sensibly?
is he in the right state of mind/feeling sleepy, as always, in class.
why cant he stop blurtin out words of hurt, rubbish and tries to act funney (when obviously he's not) and big.
i used to think he's nice. that was way long ago.
im angry at how i can get such a friend.
people like that will never get my forgiveness and sympathy.
he sometimes speak without thinking.
"please check before you speak"
i think that would best suit him, although it was what he said to me.
so now, im gona keep repeatin that to him.
if i bother to talk to him.
because of all his actions/words, i regretted joinin the cca so darn much.
regretted makin him as a friend.
embarrassed at the times all of us went out.
because i cant believe i actually did.
time definitely tells all.
how true.

today, i gt super pissed and i walked away without attendin cca.
"what does he being occupied has anythin to do with us?"
cant anyone start cca first?
things are no longer the same before june.
stepping down is a must already.
meeting times, if its urgent, shld b favourable to j2s.
i duno why some people cannot use their brains in certain situations.
maybe open the mouth too big all the dust go into the brain.
aren't mid yrs in june impt?
so march dun need study?
even if there was sme time for us to do, ok, but food and reception stuff only can be done nearer to the date.
main thing, deco.
we're act doing the heavy job.
isn't it the first time decoratin the LT for film fest?
bought materials and idea was rejected?
cant it be words of encouragement and perhaps tell us use materials to improve on idea?
even if not said, we could think of it.
i guess, a bad leader is shown.
then again, j1s?
did the j2 in the cca do so much like us last yr?
o hold on, i rmb the j1s did last yr.
wow.
i duno whats goin on in his brain.
as you've noticed, i kept talkin bout his brain.
because its true of the above.
i dun understan how he can be our class leader and the president of our cca.
perhaps he's the best choice(wait. no. its so obvious.)
perhaps nobody wana be.
working with him is a nightmare.
i pity his friends.

loser.
i was supposed to make a voodoo today.
but i have work to do.
j2s have a lot of work to do.
maybe he shld have shifted workload to j1s earlier.
obviously he is myopic, literally as well.
ok maybe voodoo tmr.
emmeline's makin with me too.
and i duno if he knows there are so many out there who doesn't like him?
hmm.
shld i say?
o i've said.

gosh,
an entry dedicated to a loser.
wastin my time?
man.
could have written so much stuff for my hw.
i hope to get over film fest asap.
which is act a bad thng because i was supposed to anticipate it.
well, all because of smeone.
he's ruined a little part of my life.
and others' lives.
pollutin it.
damn gross.

you needa think more man.
start acting like a man.
shut up when you need to.
brush your teeth.

2007-07-21T07:25:00.000-07:00

SHAOMIN: eh ur new blogskin rocks la. looks like me. ok kiddin. i must polish my pool skills asap. or else will rust. hai. eh you bought the new harry potter book yet?

SIMPLE: are you sure you wana kill me?!?!? then you won't have free 'relax' or 'ali baba' tissue to use. but then, you won't have someone sidin off your bag strap. hmmm. you think bout it. hah.

POH: OMG WHY MUST YOU SAY HIS NAME HERE. DAMN YUCKS. NOW I AM GOING TO PUKEEEEE.

JOAN: HOW CAN YOU BOX ME YUN JOON!?!??! koreans nice leh. why dun want. so traditional ah you. hah. niam niam ti ti youh youh. hahahha.

LIMIN: eh nvm i dun wana know more ny pple. haha. ok my email is tzeyin21@hotmail.com. talk to you on msn soon!

One hr later, im startin on my proper entry and im already lazy to type more. let's see. this week's super hectic. it aggravated my aches. there's so much work to do now that it is almost impossible to finish them in one day after a long day at school.

on a happier note, i caught harry yesterday! it was gooooood. the breathtaking sceneries and the sounds are superb, contrary to what many others feel. thats because they've read the book! but then again, emmeline's bro said its good although he read. so, it really good! does anyone like voldemort's nostrils? damn small please. how he dig nose?!?!? nebo club is a funney place. i imagined emmeline going in every fri to play chess and some card game at her favourite table. we were at amk hub and there was this grp of girls playing sme french card game. you know the one whre u have to put the card on your head and then guess whatever u have to. maybe its fun i dunno but its hilarious watchin them. anw, the cleaners and staff at the cinema got to watch harry potter too! they were standin at the back. omgggg. are they supposed to? FREE MOVIE LEH. then i shld get a job at the cinema rite. o yea, the person gave me and emmeline lovers seat. wth. but comfy. so all the lovers were sittin there and then we were like lesbians. wa lao. damn disgustin please. shouldn't go with her. but if i don't, i wun get 4 bucks tik. hah.

i met vanessa before that to pass her her present. only for a while. swim soon okayyy! then i took bus with serene. she dropped at the next stop.

we had supper/dinner at hawker. omg the aunty at the drink stall damn funney. she said "teh siIII" geddit? the si part she went really high and zao sia. in the end i had to giggle then control my laughter to myself, all because i was queuing alone.

just a few hrs ago, i was on the sofa watchin tv and i saw one scene that reminded my sis about rain. so i got reminded of how serene imitated rain's dance move. wa lao. i laughed to myself. im even laughin now. you've gota see her face and body. basically her everything. haha. o man, DUN KILL ME! i took 136 with you leh! and mrt too!

i have 10 film fest tiks to sell. anyone wana go? please do buy from me. o hell im askin a lot of people already and many decline. i mean what am i supposed to do if i can't sell right. and now inno is what i think as threatenin us. if we dun meet xpectations we have to see mr kellet. FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU. what is this? what the fuck is he gona say to us? "you have to ask people. take initiative." and whatever shit. then i thought, is he gonna be really there? seriously, by doing all these, by messagin all these shit, they are makin me hate inno even more, makin me regret my cca choice even more. then they'll go, "who cares if you hate. you made the choice. " two words, fuck you la. ok three words.

i get really pissed at ridiculous and nonsensical stuff and people will tell me to chill/relax/calm down. after a while i get fine unless i get reminded of them. they are irritatin. but many things im able to tolerate, like certain bitches who don't directly step on my toes.

i don't call someone bitch when i don't mean it. i may call someone disgustin when i don't really actually mean it. disgusting can be in a weird and funney way. or sometimes, the person can seriously be disgustin in a disgustin way. yep.

i think my bp just went up. i caught 'moon dance' today. it was good. it was touching. it was inspiring. some old men are truly worth our respect. o yea, i can't find any nice songs nowadays. so im going back to old ones instead. don't you think rihanna is pretty? at a age of 19, she's super successful. that reminds me of britney spears. o man, my ex-favourite singer. i was sucha a fan that i wanted to order her barbie doll online. Fortunately, my dad refused to pay for me. thanks daddy!

off to the toilet then my hw table/bed.
im still achin.
grr.

"crazy is good. crazy is wonderful. crazy is beautiful. the world needs crazy"

2007-07-15T05:41:00.000-07:00

neeeed to update!!!
i've been busy with school stuff.
man.
ok friday we celebrated cathleen's bd after her art that was about 8 plus.
before that innpoh serene me went bras basah to get sme stuff for cca.
hell, i miss the place when souvenir department wenta get stuff.
did we?
o man. i forgot. hah.
yea i think we did.
ya so anw, we took photos of us shopping as proof that we actually wenta get stuff so noone, NO ONE can accuse us of slackin.
and then me innpoh (serene pangseh) went tpy met up with sookchan and joan.
sookchan chopped place at foodcourt first.
all because she and joan wana watch shou zu!
wa lao!
ahhahahahha.
at first din wana meet me for dinner la.
see what tv did to them.
cathleen came and she had the disgustin medium rare bloody, damn bloody steak.
so yucky.
well done is so much better, please.
innpoh bought a rose form a disgustin florist.
no time talk bout it.
its just disgustin.
just outside the foodcourt atop the ntuc.
rmb ok.
then we din get to play sparklers because of the absence of fire!
o well.
then innpoh thought sookchan had diarrhoea because we waited for her for damn long.
i think im blabberin too much irrelevant stuff.
im short of time.

sat was happy day.
met up with shaomin and christabel.
sorry for bein late!
speakin of late, innpoh and cathleen wanted me to buy a late permit or smthn because i caused negative externality to them.
eeeeyer!
sorry la...... i will be early next time.
eh at least i din pangseh like serene! ahaha.
she's gona kill me.
serene has a funney and disgustin ringtone.
and she had a disgustin invisible pencilcase!
dun kill me!
o yea bout sat.
we went manhattan fish market.
food was little.
i was hungry later.
then off we went to paradiz.
finally, i know how to pronounce that word.
while waitin for our turn to the pool table,
we sat smewhre and took many stupid photos.
ya many ugly photo of tze yin.
because i was sittin in the middle.
and christabel said the middle person will disappear in the photo.
what/!???!?!?!?!?!
but i din. hahaha.
photos up next week!
pool came and and and.... i was damn lousy la.
then this mornin i woke up i kept thinkin of ways to hit the ball.
as in imagine.
and imaginin ways to shoot better.
and then the newspaper today came out steps to achieve a masse.
damn cool.
im gona try next time.
ya rite.
i think i must try jumpball first.
they both took the same bus back and i waited for the snail 131.
and the mp3 went outa batt while waitin.
how disgustin.
and i realise my area's damn nice to take a stroll at at night.

i feel like im rushin thru all my words.
am i?

JOAN: joon nice please. since you say like korean, its even better! then you shall me seow yun joon. how's that man!

POH: eh why so shocked i wear dress. not feminine enough for you in school? then i alter my skirt shorter? and i wear lacy bra outside my uni. can? yuck. next time i wear dress with pants.

LIMIN: not christian! you just know so many ny pple!

GONGZ: o thanks for intendin to call to ask bout my health anw. haven been talkin to you lately gongz. and you haven been updatin your blog! eh but thats good. means your studying riteee???

JERLYN: eh! so long already the sunflower definitely has died. hahha. but it was nice. thanks man. how was academic excellence! you're already muggin so hard. you go for that then you'll mug harder? wa lao. superwoman la.

YIXIU: xiuzyyy. i miss sayin that in the super low voice. dun worry, since you miss "xiuzyyyy" so much i shal say it on mon alrite. please be patient. im not skinny! joon is! you sexy high- pitched-scream girl. hah.

o gosh.
8:54 pm.
gotta finish maths.
then econs tmr and tues.
full paper on wed please.
people!
we must mug hard!
but then, i need motivation.
hmmm.

somebody buy film fest tik from me??

2007-07-06T08:49:00.000-07:00

i cant upload photos again! anal blogg.. ok im not supposed to scold blogger. i believe it'll b better later or maybe there's smthn wrong with my com. yes. ok anw anw.

since everyberdy are blogging and talking about transformers i should too!

because i've watched it and its bloody bloody nice!!

serene's gona be real sad.

eh but i hope you get to watch it soon!

then we can discuss about megatron together. and bumblebee. hah.

and the movie's hilarious.

if you din laugh, you're weird.

there's this part where there's a woman dressed in a formal pretty nice blue dress. and she was sittin so nciely on the ground, looking up at this transformer flying towards her because it was hit by another transformer, i think.

so this transformer flew over her head and her head turned, screaming. i mean, wth.

she could have ran please. sit til so nice for what lady.

ok but, emmeline presumed its supposed to be funney.

and there's this scene where the transformer fell to the ground and said "DISGUSTING" in a really super duper low voice and flicked a human being away.

he went " ahhhhhhh.. "

ok that got me laughin for 1 min and i was vibratin the whole time.

anyhow, its oober goooood!

but then again, i wouldn't watch it twice. so, yep.nextup, harry potter. cant wait. the thriller, super enticing.

ok so i ended xams on wed. hell man. the papers were hell. ok my vomit diarrhoea and cramps were greater hell. lemmi update on xams first. im seriosuly flunkin mid yrs. my dad told me that mid yrs and prelims are nothn. ultimately, its the As that matters. o well. thanks dad. wait til he hears my upcoming much anticipated results. i seriously can't wait. i mean, im seriously serious! no pun!

ok yea, about that greater hell.

last sun, i went to slp thinkin i was full of air. super bloated. in the middle of the nite. i woke up, had my diarrhoea. went back to bed. but then the diarrhoea came again. then the vomitsssssss. i was in and out of the toilet for uncountable no. of times. ok i was exaggerating. but there were many! my stomach hurt really really bad. hours passed. i took medicine. but of no use. for the last time when i was in the toilet for that night, i seriously wanted to faint and just kill myself. silly thought yes. but the pain was intolerable. i could almost die. but i din obviously. i so wanted to go to the hospital. ER you know. and then finally the pain wasn't so bad. it came and go. so i curled up in bed and tried to slp. i did. a few hrs. and for that whole night, even when i was slping, my mum was there. i was and still am seriously touched. the chi phrase "wu wei bu zhi" came to my mind. how true is that. my mum is a superwoman in my heart. "i heart thee".

yea and i wanted to talk about the doctor. but im lazy now. i din really eat for 4 freakin days. first day 1 mouth of porride. 2nd day perhaps 5 mouths of sme food. 3rd third, 1/4 of my meal. 4th day, half of my meal! and today, my appetite kinda came back. i was really weak. i went back cedar on thurs and the drinks stall auntie told me i've thinned. pretty sad to hear. wasn't happy alrite. i lost weight. from 50 plus to today's weight, 46kg. omg. i think im like underweight now. wait, there's stil joan. hahaha. i mean joon.

thanks emmeline, jerlyn, ah ma, and random, or izit some form random, for their concern. and

I LOVE MY MUM. =)

ok transformers was watched with emmeline and her ex and her ex's fren. freakheads. suckers. we left after watching and then i had jellybeans. man, did it gave me air or what? i became bloated again! grrr. we watched flushed away at my house. believe me, i was fallin aslp and i couldn't laugh at the funney slugs at all. i was too weak! tmr, im watching the road to guantanamo. the torture, i think is gona drive me mad.

today, went to the doc, had lunch with mum, walked a bit and metup with random exlcudin the artsies. they had to paint after xams!!! darn sad!

we bought presents.

yay, i've gotten christabel's and vanessae's!!!

JOAN: i uploaded already! see! got latest one too! good riteee. o anw, no dreams about spongy leh. very long din hug already cause din feel well. later the sponge got oil smell. hah.

MEOWMEOW: i tot you're another fren leh! (cathleen). eh hehlo? no contact with me now?!?!? what's this. huh. what's this!

SHAOMIN: i hope we're meetin up sooon! im act replyin tags tagged on my bd. madness.

KUSHINA GURUNG!: tag more please! needa know how ur doing! thanks for wishing me. hope you have a bf already! hah.

SHIJIE: eh hey! thanks thanks. last seen you at guitar concert! have a blog?

LIMIN: linked! i din now you're a christian and you know people i know!

TRACY: heyhey! i think you're funney too! hahaha. i like playing creating a story by adding a sentence! hope you did well for mid yrs!

VANESSA: YAYYYYY you can swim with me already. but izit very bad to your friend? or you meetin her after that? eh, you gotta love love love my present. my entry update nice can.

SOOKCHAN: eh hehlo! one day i'll let you listen ruby. haha. o ya im supposed to watch witch yoohee leh. but now already so late. grrrr. all the updating blog fault. eh buy tiks form me. hah. wana ask ur frenz cme? buy frm me.

ok this entry's too long without photos. lemmi try uploading now.

ok can. i see. i have to upload one by one. mannn.

so here, my ugly photos.

have fun going "YUCK!"

or "GROSS! what the hell is she thinking/doing!?!??!"

byeee!

2007-07-04T07:28:00.000-07:00

im uber lazy. uber uber lazy leh. how? well, at least i blogged. =)

2007-06-21T09:12:00.000-07:00

ok. i won't be blogging till after exams. hell. im gona fail my subs. seriously. im the worst.

ok photos.
they are all mixed up. tioman and mon's celeb.
post more after exams.
im suppsoed to study now!
all blogger's fault.

byebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebye.

2007-06-19T01:54:00.000-07:00

i can't upload pics from my trip, not even one.

JOAN: i've been enjoying life til now ah. haven really mug. how dead can i get.oober dead.

POH: are you giving me necklace? are you are you? hah.

SOOKCHAN: eh i got new fav song already. english, no chinese. let you hear next time, when im happy. hah.

SHAOMIN: so you're at your fren's hse now? eh but kinda no time to meet up. man. so do i stil get my present? yay. i wanttttttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PAMELA: NO! i want psp. real one. emmeline gave me a fake one. hah. meet after xams! must must. then you can gimme present. what izit? underwear?

KUSHINA GURUNG: glad you read my email! i though you din received la. celine no blog. lazy. eh you never update. update already tell me. i wana read about nepal please. hah. dun tag jerlyn's blog, just tag mine will do. then she'll come here to read. im going ur hometown soon.

SIMPLE: eh horrible girl. u pause once then confirm no more song already what. i shal put auto play next time. eh, ur supposed to multi task! hah. but i cant too.

JERLYN: jealous riteeeeee. eh din reply my msg thankin you. shall thank you here too. STANK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU.

AH MA AH MA AH MA: time is tickin thats why u dun wana waste time read my blog? hahaha. eh so your blog update already? tickticktick.blogspot.com. hahahha. pussy foot.

YAYYYY, like finally.
ok i'll just upload 2 out of hundred plus photos.
more another day maybe.
this one below: waterfall.

the water was hell cold.
and if i step into the water to my right, i wun be able to touch the ground.
ya, super deep, although the waterfall which you guys cant see isn't the first one.
means there is another waterfall higher up
but we couldn't climb.
there wasn't any more steps
but only tree roots to climb on
i tried and it was pretty ok but higher up it was tougher.
no one wanted to climb with me please.

and this: sometime after sunset

the feeling when you're actually there, undescribable.

ytd, it was an early bd celebration from ahma, emmeline, gongz, jerlyn, xiany. thank you so so so so much. i played amazing race. the diff is i played alone. lazy to blog about the details but ok, it was qt fun. finding clues arnd town. omg man. perspire like mad. i even had to talk to strangers to get clue. includin salesmen in newurbanmale please. i was hell scared to go in, as usual. dun ask me why. the funniest thing is i always see gongz at her stations when im not supposed to. so i played catching with her to get my clue. fuckin hilarious. all the clue i've gotten, i could only solve one quickly and easily. the rest were like omg, because im slow and impatient and slow. ahma and i had pussy foot at balcony. xiany's clue was weirdest. 'be careful you dont lose your balance, for you are so corny.' wa lao! how to guess! hah. the answer is balcony. jerlyn's and gongz's clues were troublesome sia. run here and there. alamakkkkkkkkkkk. but ok. funfun. emmeline's one made me feel so blind and slow. i couldnt see her when she was right in front of me and her clue was qt simple but i failed to get it. stupid stupid STUPID. at the end of the 'game', we had crystal jade. omg i tell you, the durian pudding is #*$#^&#&*(@. MEANS DAMN NICE. GO EAT. OR YOU CAN BUY FOR ME. headed to UK funfair. i will never ever sit those rides and even think about escape. emmeline, i will escape from escape.

at the end of the day, i sat at the benches under my block erasing the messages i received during the amazing race and i thought of all of them. im thankful for their existence, for their love. i got really nice bras (with translucent panty), flowers and a card (without xiany's note inside). im at a loss for words. the only thing i wana say to them now, if you guys are reading this, yesterday was seriously THE day. i love you guys even more and will always do, for my lao tao friends i know will always be there for one another, giving support, fun, laughter (laugh like mad). and, i think i needa cry to express how much you guys mean to me. ok, you get it.

ok, im going ndp with my sis. since she wants to. haven been out together with her alone before. omg hah. so weird. tze ye, hello, we can take pictures together.

hell, i needa mug now. wait, mac first.
i like my watch.
and i can't wait to meet random!
hi guys!

=)

2007-06-11T00:17:00.000-07:00

i dunno how many weeks have passed. i just know i've been really really really lazy. i could have started studying like hell knows how many week ago. and then all i thought about was play play play and more going out. then the freakin fever had to come and took away one week of healthy living. the worst thing is sore throat, flu and cough had to come with the freakin 39.0 degrees celsius fever. i almost had to go to the ER for my pulse rate because it was too high. 125 beats a min. fyi, its supposed to be less than a 100 per min. so, go count yours now. hah.

i started reading my first set of geog notes few days ago and has since finished it ytd night. i started a little on the 2nd set. now you can see how slow am i. and i am seriously determined to do my math today. that is after packing my stuff for tioman tomorrow. dang. another week gone. im sosososo dead ok. my mum's so short tempered. sometimes, i really can't stand her. grrr. omg damn irritating. her voice is in my ears now. and then my sis, ........ i dun wana say man. she might be reading this.

o o o o! you know, i received a call from this guy who told me i won 2 ndp tickets. omg yayyyyy. now i dunno if my sis wana go. if not, i'll ask emmeline, jerlyn or gongz. the name emmeline reminded me of shrek. why? because she msged me one night telling me she watched shrek and laughed so much until she choked. then i got reminded of that mon i was supposed to watch shrek. SUPPOSED TO. now, my 6 bucks got wasted. i was freakin mad la. i so wanted to watch it. maybe christabel will want to watch with me. will you? hah. then jerlyn told me she was going to watch too and i went berserk. ok i am mad. at least i got my ndp tiks. at least its not preview. its the actual!!! yipppeee.

last friday, i gotten myself 50 bucks. thanks to tracy. me jerlyn ahma and tracy's friend and tracy's friend's boyfriend and 2 other women were there at meritus mandarin. there was this autodesk event. me and ahma were the traffic controllers. at first it was pretty busy but after some time, it was really empty outside and we still ahd to stand there and look stupid. sometimes, we go over to the piano to sit and when people come, they just walked past us really fast and we couldnt attend to them. hah. i kept going to the toilet because my shit was being anal with me. finally during my 6th visit, the shit came out. woohoo. i was rejoicing. i had a tasteless experience with chicken rice during lunch. i had flu you see. it was torture. the rest were really cold and i wasnt. i think i turned numb i couldnt feel a thing. we were there really really really long, of course me and ahma din stand there from morning til evenin. from afternoon onwards we sat together with the rest settling some stuff. then jerlyn told us this woman told her she just came to eat at the event. omg. hahaha. siao. she must be mad to say that. the event is about computing manufacturing stuff i suppose and the presenters seem so ready. trust me, i was the traffic controller. some people were really really late. like 1hr plus late? ok guys, stop saying that they are just like me. there is woman who was really cute. she explained to me why she was late. wth. hah. i went, o ok, its ok. hah. and there was another cute old man. ok not really old. and i dun fall for old guys ok.

i realise i haven been using my cam. its rotting. i hope the batt dun go berserk over at tioman. so for now, there are no photos. damn sad. yes.

i should have went studying with emmeline and gongz ytd. and im regretting only now. mad. i din do a shit ytd. and its been long since i've seen my big metal gongz. as usual, emmeline told me she talked really loud over at the lib. and wth, i could imagine her talking in my head when i saw that msg. and i laughed. hah.

i duno why my updates are like all over the place. my updates do have have speific dates. i just thought about them then i pend them down here. ok, here's another thought. my mum went shopping with me and sis and yay, bought clothes. still, i din get my shirts, just plain shirts from tangs, really long necklaces, aldo clutch (i saw i saw i saw!), new bikini, new shoes, and.. i guess thats all. of course soon to come (i hope) : psp, samsung/nokia phone( i saw one from each brand i really super duper oober like). OK XIANY, THIS IS IN CAPS FOR YOU, THAT WAS MY WISHLIST. YOU CAN BUY ME ANY STUFF FROM THERE. BUT SINCE YOU ARE MY FRIEND, I SHALL NOT FORCE YOU TO BUY. YOU HAVE A CHOICE. YOU CAN JSUT GIMME A BITHDAY CARD. ITS OK. ITS REALLLY REALLLLY OK. GEDDIT? hah. i love xiany! i haven seen you for a long time already!

everytime i confirm my entry, i have to read again to spot my spelling errors. i can type fast but they are always full of errors. talk to me on msn and you'll know. damn horrible please. i think i've to stop here.

and for those people, including serene, innpoh and i dunno who, who immediately pause the song on my blog when you enter, (haha), i will pause them for you ok. but i know then, you wun play the song. but please play, i put for you guys oK! im putting up a new song soon. but i just dunno what. too many nice song. and redwan ali's 'would you be there' is not a nice song. sookchan, joan, serene and yixiu, stop saying its nice! omg. hah. lp nicer ok.

XIANY: my wishlist up there! eh when are we meeting with jerlyn?!?!?!

JOAN: your english very funney! with all the hokkien words. "bong bong"? its "pong pong" la! haha. faster plan outing!!!!

SHAOMIN: ya wabbit! eh but i long time no play cause long time no come online. will beat 5 million soon. hah. can u meet on weekdays? 16th you cant rite. christabel asked. 18th? mid yrs coming! faster meet once. and i think i can't go guides dinner. u? enjoy!

bon voyage tze yin,
she's dead.
MID YEARS!

byeeeeeee.

2007-06-01T06:51:00.000-07:00

SHAOMIN: YES PLEASEEEE rabbit got everyone addicted! ahhaha. damn fun! tel me more addictive games ok. anw the rabbit song is scary. o ya, anw, good luck for your exams/test/module/i dunno what.

VANESSA: eh vanessae, you are the one who told me her name is natalia! your friend what! i thought you kept talking to her when i was in my cubicle. shit man she took photo? later everynight she take out her phone and look at the naked boobies hah. enjoy rabbit game!you lousy!

XIANY: wa lao. my birthday you dunno? dun kid me la i know you know. i then dunno yours la. hah. ask me what i want. pleaseeeee.

DRAKE: ya so nice the song. i sing to you next time. or you sing to me. or we sing together. my favourite song. who lie on you on your bed!

SIHUI: please lnd me ur ziggy cartoon series if you borrow ok. nat lib so big how to find!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ziggy ziggy ziggy.

BEL: bite you?!?!??! no!!!!!!!!!!! im no man eating person man. i hug you la. why haven't meeeeet!! where are you!

yixiu: how dare you say im not class. see, now your name's in small letters. you are the ultimate booby lover. but i still like you, you "scandalous butch". sounds familiar?

REY: OMG! LONG TIME NO TALK AND SEE! LIKE SUPER LONG. haha. do you still have your blog? and i rmb seeing your girlfriend on friendster! haha. ok see you arnd in the neighbourhood!

after the swim date with vanessa, i seriously can't remember what i did on sat and sun. i din go to school on monday. was supposed to meet emmeline but i was dead tired because i woke up early to go to school but in the end i din. i went to school on wednesday then we went out to get present at marina area. today's friday, so yesterday i went to swim with emmeline. omg yes. tan tan tan. but not tan enough. soon soon. the pool was surprisely empty. and lucky for me, no more boobies to pollute my eyes. or rather to excite yixiu's eyes. it rained after we swam and the umbrella we shared was mad. or rather the wind was mad. we were kinda drenched. went to her hse. o man, i forgot to say, the pork or whatever was good. and wa lao, i wanted to watch finish hitch ok. constantine is a stupid show. stupid! then we came to my hse. omg it was slack time. it was supposed to be studying time la. but nvm, nice playing dict hangman. you are the loser. anw emmeline wun get to read this. hah. my mum thinks ur weird ok. told you! all my friends are weird except me.

ok, today, out with mum, sis and aunty. i had a super big macdonals meal, thanks to my aunty. and im gonna get my happymeal with gingy in it soon. there was this super cute boy with a tail at the bottom of his hair. he opened the display which showed the happy meal's toys and the toy tumbled out. hahaha. he was scared stiff ok. who ask him itchy hand please. but anyhow, darn cute. so he faster pick up, open the display and tried to put it back. surprisely, no one saw what he was doing, only us. he couldn't make the toy. instead, both toys in the display was lying down. he ran to his super long haired mum smiling and had this balloon. hah. i looked at the display and man, i couldn't see the toys anymore. they were lying on their back. naughty boy. but again, cute. i want!

bought my dad slippers. sis and i shared.
we stopped at a few malls in town then off to far east to get my watch fixed.
man,
need to wait 3 to 4 days before i can collect.
grrrrrrrrr.
i haven't even tried wearing it out once!
man man man...

i need....
a super nice black clutch. (aldo!!!)
long long necklacesssss.
new shoe.(no heels)
faded mini.
tops (soon soon!)
psp!
samsung mp3 (OMG)
new bikini.
$$ to treat dad.

hmm.
ok.
my aunty gave me angbow today.
and my sis got me my presents already.
one of them my new patrick hp chain. hah damn big.
i love i love.
hope you liked my kiss and hug.
and...
the watch!
thanks man!
I LOVE YOU AH.
i shall go visit her blog now.

byeeeee.

2007-05-26T07:48:00.000-07:00

waiting waiting...
for heroes to load.
man, hiro is totally cool.

anw, im removing hoolaboolah, my monkey pet. i wanted to remove long ago, just that i either keep forgetting or just plain lazy. laziness is going to kick in from tomorrow onwards. die.

VANESSA: since when did your name become vanessae. good swim today. but not much tan. only the back. i can see the criss cross on my back now. eh hows ur good fren, natalia.

JOAN: photos! ahha. very little. wait till i see you online. then you must remind me.

SIMPLE: you are the pangseh queen. and the come-for-two-outings person. hah. hmm. about that, im not running away frm reality. i cant possibly do so. how? face up? but that's the truth i know. you know, some things just come to your mind so inevitably. anytime anyplace. things that people say can trigger off that things you dun ever want to remember. thanks for this anw, thanks sister.

PAMELA: i need my family now. i needa see you, my son, asap. meet me at the garden outside our house. 12am. i let you molest the maid. flick poke and what?!??! shoot? hah. i seriously feel damn bad not going to the concert.

SHAOMIN: thanks for taggin once in a blue moon! hah. i tag urs too. and i really think the boa in ur blog looks like ur best friend. anw, dun be bu gan yuan. forget it la. hah. eh thanks for introducing the flying rabbit game! damn scary thou.

CATHLEEN: i mean smelly fish, why change ur nick! i din flirt ok. you are the one who flirt. do not deny. anw its qt ok sittin next to you now. wait. i duno. stop starin at me. although i know its hard not to. and lemmi draw on ur paper please.

YIXIU: ur taggin! hmm. so weird. you're qt free ah. kiddin. i think its ok to still miss her and cry for her, imagining she might walk into the house one day and give me a hug. its normal i guess. im strong. i dun break. this is life yes. and i will still cont to cry. thanks man. and thanks for trusting in me for that thing about you. i wish you luck and happiness forever and ever from this month onwards. hah. don't be scared! live for the moment. and o yes, where's my stop and stare song! damn nice. i hope ur mum wun switch off the switch while snding me the song man. damn funney. ok maybe to you its not funney. omg damn long this reply.

XIANY: XIANY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! where have you been! near farrer park yes i know. hah. come to my house! i still remember the dragon in your house. i wana go outtttttttttttt. let's wait for jerlyn's camp to be over. den we can all meetup. yay. prolly you wana buy my bd present first? erm, hah.

damn. heroes is damn slow in loading.
all i wana say now is,
thanks a lot friends,
im lucky i have this blog and the tagboard because previously i felt so lost without my phone.
yes, i lost it,
again.
so im using my sis's sim card now.
and i lost qt a few contacts.
grrrrr.
i hate losing that.
so ya anw,
you can contact me at my old no, yes the same one, from mon onwards.
im gona have to start asking people for their nos again.
helpp.

tonite's dinner was weird?
why weird?
i felt weird.
i was home yes.
i was so darn tired even after a short nap in the evenin.
and then i was filled up so quickly.
salmon, tofu, potato balls, veg, mushroom soup.
too much protein?
that's what my dad said.

today, vanessa and i went swimming after my gp exam.
speaking about that,
OMGGGGGGG.
its like grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. die already.
ok back to the swimming part.
she had her braces on. haahaha. not ugly la!
you better know what i mean man.
so we walked to the changing room.
guess what was the first thing i saw?
o yea o yea.
yixiu's favourite,
boobies!
long big saggy boobs belonging to a china woman.
o yea.
who's getting high now.
together with her there were others, whom i din dare to look at.
so whether they are naked, half naked, dressed or whatever, i duno.
initially i was like, "hmm, ok."
so what ya? so what?
because i've seen naked women in changing room before.
they kept walking to and fro the bench and the cubicle.
right.
then came along vanessa's favourite friend, natalia, the indian cleaner.
damn funney la she!
i seriously couldn't catch what she was saying.
only vanessa could.
got the bond, got the fate, got the love.
she was like complaining complaining.
and then there was this mother who wanted to take a picture of the naked women and send to stomp.
WOAH.
damn cool.
hah.
but i was like, no please.
natalia wanted to take photo too.
did she vanessa?
i think she did.
then something struck me.
the mother said what if some little boy comes into the room with his mum?
yea.
i was like, o yea.
and i started to hate those bitches.
i saw their pubic hair.
it looked shaved.
well first things vanessa saw when she entered was the buttock.
haha.
wa lao.
boy leh!
boy see naked female stranger.
omg.
no way no way.
someone told the lifeguard and he came near the entrance and shouted "hello. lifeguard coming to spot check." etc etc and spoke in mandarin asking them to not change outside. and he keeps repeating. the funney things is, the bitches just stood there and did nothing. i assumed they stoned because i din wana look at them.

then we went swimmmingggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhhhhhh. my favourite sport ok. the sun was being anal. playing hide and seek. anw i thought i saw some rules at swimming saying no bikinis allowed.

back to the changing room and natalia came again. talked to vanessa aH! favourite already.

wenta eat and back home.
told my family bout it.
dad was ok with it but i told him little boys do go in and he was like o ya, then its bad.
my mum started talking about some china women who are really daring and they are becoming increasingly open now. open as in being really sexual, attracting, flirting with male strangers on the street.
i asked my dad bout army and about gays in changing rooms cause they'll all be naked.
he said duno la.
"i've never encountered that before,
but they surely happy la."
and he had this cheeky smile.
hoho.

enough said about that.
to wawanee, if you're reading this,
sorry.
i thought we din confirmed anything and i din know you bought tiks for us until pamela told me. and you din snd me the message bout place and time. ok that isn't important.
but really sorry.
i hope it went well for you.
i owe you one.

as im typing this, i see fire downstairs.
they are burning somethings.
i guess its for funeral purposes.
then it got me reminded again.
some place near that area,
i stood there near the fire, feeling the heat but i din wana move away.
i almost felt myself burning.
until i couldn't tolerate, i moved away.

the weather's super hot.
i went to the doc on fri and i was told my throat was swollen and polka dotted.
immediately i thought of white dots.
eeeeew.
yuck please.
ok.
3 litres of water a day.
the relief doc is really uber nice.
the other one was away on hol.
she's fat.
growing fatter and fatter.
lik mum said, she took too much 'good' food.
and, she's a doc.
o.
yes, a doctor who is gaining wt over the years.
man.
and i hate her face.
her expressionless face.
her attitude.
my throat hurts damn lots.
its the worst sore throat i've ever.
after ruturning from swimming i couldnt really speak to my family.
whenever i do, it hurts badly.

o yes and did i mention somebody is making me hate him more and more.
damn poser.
and he's certaininly getting more unpopular.
why can't he stop and think.
see what he's doing.
hear what he's saying.
is he good enough for this.
is he worth our time, our wait.
why can't he see his own weaknesses and yet see that of others so clearly
or maybe he even faked them up.
great.
beast.
fugly.
he made me say it.
shit hole, i hate you.
i almost wish you never exist.

insects do bug me.

2007-05-21T07:52:00.000-07:00

i want to reply my tags so much but im super lazy. no wonder no one wants to tag anymore. sorry men. i need emo songs instantly. my foot hurts again. what's wrong with my ankle, my foot, my spinal tail. what's wrong. im turning emo. i think i need to be emo. i might be tomorrow in school. i hate laughing so hard in school and then going home and then turn emo. as in, i am seriously darn happy at home, with my funney and great parents and the excitement they together with my sister, gives me. but, when i am all alone, i look back at the past. i look back at the year i cried the most. the year i will never forget. the year i came to a jc for the first time. the year i meet great new exciting different kinds of people who gave me different feelings. the year i regret going out of sr. the year i met happy go lucky friends in sr. the year i met random. the year i really bonded with my parents because i truly neglected my family life previously. so many many things. and the year a few people left in my life. one great friend. one great part of me, my granny. she took the happiness from me. i wouldn't be so sad with her around. from the everyday meeting to 'pop'! the bubble just burst and she's gone so instantly. nanyang sucks. i hate it. because if i wasn't in nanyang i would have answered that phone call. THE phone call. The messages. undeleted. no one reads my messages. can't. no. you know, after she left, i felt the big family is trying so hard to keep us all together. that would be her wish yes. but evidently, it is still inevitable that the undesirable has taken place. i no longer see those i see so often when she was around. painful. its so quiet now, as compared to the past. cny is going to be weird for us. its going to be quiet. real quiet. then maybe one day my aunty will love out from the flat upstairs and it will become even quieter. i did not even dream of her. i need my medicine. my dosage of granny everyday. i duno why i am rambling so much about the past. i duno why i still can't forget. its hard yes but its still fresh in my head. i feeling like mutilating myself. so stupid. tze yin is stupid. gp is the time i turn emo. i duno why. gp lessons make me wonder many many things no one knows. gp lessons enables me to look back, to locate what i hate to recall most. i feel good after typing it out. and then i thought dania could 'save' me. for a moment she did. then, she's gone too. where's hope. "i need you. and you."

i saw a granny who looks like mine last week. well, maybe all grannies look the same from the back view. she was on a wheelchair and her maid was sitting next to her on a bench at the park under my block. without any sec to think, i totally heated up and i thought i was going to breakdown but no, only a well up of tears. i can feel her hands, her hug, her kiss, her smell. i can recall me lying next to her on the sofa laughing so much, her bathing for me and i totally hated it but i didn't know how to reject her offer. i can recall her teaching me the hand games but with 100% regret i forgot; the time i accidentally swung a toy car at her head, closing the car door with her finger stuck in between and when she fell, down the stairs and in my home. and so coincidentally, her photo just came up on my desktop sidebar. why, is she here? i duno.

i hate this.

how will i be tomorrow.

goodness.

why can't she be an immortal.

why can't she go with me.

why can't i see her for the last time.

i hate my phone.

2007-05-18T04:03:00.000-07:00

i am super duper tired now.
i never ever want to go back to my old sleeping time every weekday.
i cant take 2am sleep.
i need 1145pm.

im glad i met xiany.
=)))

tired ah!

swimswim.