hi, im feeeeellliiinnng much better. maybe because im home all day? i feel alrite when im home. bud when im out or in skoo, i really feel terrible. i didnt know sun's event could leave such a huge impact on me, and i never knew my heart could feel such pain. such terrible pain. after all that, i was so weak. mentally. today was physically. i promised myself to really cheer up and be like me from tomorrow onwards. my mind has been flooded with scenes from the past up til sun. i no longer shed tears. its just the pain i feel in my heart. all will be gone soon. bud memories remain. ok. pw on my mind now. no. dinner firz. i tried starvin myself btw and it reli.... argh. i couldnt take it and wenta eat in the end. starving sux. bud it actually made me tink of food rather than other stuff. pretty good way to nt tink about saddening stuff. ok hungry.


bye.