IM BACK!
ok that was stupid. i wonder who reads my blog now. only me? o well. anyhow i still feel like bloggin,. i figured i'll uncomfortable without bloggin today. test test. ok i prefer small letters. there's class com workshop tmr. i mean today, sat. but i heard only new IT reps needa go and thus im nt attending. hopefully that news is true. wait it has to be true. since it was announced today. dun u think im qt naggy in my writing? am i really weird?
just today i received serene's msg telling me she din noe im so weird until she went out with me today after skoo. man. i was damn hurt. ok nt really. i just dun understan why. WHY WHY WHY. ok. anw, TODAY.....

skoo was ok. in fact it was gooooood! good when compared to other days of the school week. because we end so early and gp was pretty ok. i really dislike gp. man. but... argh i'll just cont. so, john's contacts were making her eyes hurt so she went hme. ivan met ehr frenz and steve/steven went off to do tuition hw(SUCKER!). this leaves me and sebastian. sebastian is a girl btw aka serene. im stil nt used to callin us using our male names ok. SO WEIRD. off we went to bugis with sookchan on the same bus headin hme. just when she got out of her seat to ged down the bus, her seat came slidin out. u know? it came out. i guess it got stuck to her butt coz too sticky. so when she got up, there's gravity so the seat dropped dwn her sticky butt. ok sorry. just a fictional story ok. hah. pretty lost at bugis without knowing what presents to buy for our friends. in the end we got necklaces. OMG. i want the robot necklace. serious! so funney and nice please! serene got cheated of her belt. hmm. maybe better quality la this one! ya and my father's gona help her punch holes in her belt. o yes! we bought spongebob panties! ahhhhhhhhh. i neeeda find more. anw i gave one panty to my sis. 3 for $10. i took 2 serene took 1. so in the end im left with one black spongbob panty. and spongebob is really black. instead of yellow. take a photo tmr. my blog is so lifeless without photos. al thansk to my damn cam. or rather the sicko batt. always failin on me. so im waiting fer gongz to snd me photos we took last week.

LAST WEEK.... met up met up with... ah ma jerlyn gongz. nyny for dinner. i swear im nt gona order mushroom sauce pasta anymore whenever i go eat. wait. i might change my mind. ah whatever. im cravin for hotdogs now. big fat hotdogs. dun tink dirty please. HUNGRYYYY. yesyes. jelyn was mad wif me esp on that sat. because nt have i nt bought her present i was also lateeee. eh! but ... ok nvm. sorry man. but made it up by givin her a bd card which is like a campfire booklet ok. means its long and with pics bla. damn nice jerlyn u must admit. took me a loong looong time. ur so lucky to have a fren like me. ok anw, off to esplanade roof. the band could be heard frm below singin one night in beijing. and they were so scared when i started singing the song. wa lao. nice what my voice. serene said i can join soprano please, even thou in sec one the choir tcher rejected me. we got chased down and so we went down. obviously. and we drank jerlyn's wine. i feel qt bad now. because after we drank the bottle was half full. and it was suppossed to be a present fer her from gongz. sorry again. then gongz got really drunk and high and so horny that... ok nothn happened. me and jerlyn figues she was qt drunk la cause her eyes were like duno what, smaller than mine and she totally smell like duno what. hah. basically, she's drunk and high. too bad she din start dancin in the mrt. no show. sian. we toook a pic and ah ma was supposed to imitate this woman doing a sexy pose but she refused to because of shyness. i can do la, but too bad i got another pose already. hah. kiddin! im nt fit to do that sexy pose at al. so in e end only me and gongz did sme poses which made us look stupid. basically, i had a superb day ecause i met up with you guys. thank you so much. lovelove. meet soon again please.

gongz's bd was... chickenpox day. nt fer me but fer her. i got nagged at for meeting her because i havent had any chickenpox incident yet. seriously i din noe it's contagious. ok yesyes. im stupid. even my sister says so. and gongz, i noe u loveee my card with the so many dots and circles. hahaha. i've got ur present ready! im really surprised that gongz din ask me fer bd present when i din give her. and because of that i was so guilty bout it till now cause i've bought it already. ahahha.

ok i've to talk bout PE. soccer was fun man. although we havent gone down to the field yet. we practised heading and controlling the ball and kicking la. heading was hilarious with innpoh being my partner man. im serious. yixiu laughed like hell. i was so amazed. her ball practically land on the top of her head and she used that part to hit. omg. and the ball went flying backwards. it kept landing at the top of her head la basically. hah. i love pe. the onli lesson i look forward to ok. school sucks. everyday i wake up i think of excuses to not go school and wished i was sick. everyday im in skoo im always thinkin of excused to pon lessons and wishing i was sick. well, that's my school life. interesting? i always cant wait for the bell to ring. whenever i go to a lesson i'll always be lookin at the time like every 15 mins or less. omg lessons are such torture. how do we escape from these. smtmes i wish i could emigrate to the US to study. i wana know how they are actually studying. i wana feel the environment. man so naggy. im gettin old. my muscles turned into fats already. why don't people believe i once had muscles? WHY! i gt trng fer swimmin last tme one k and full of muscles. hah ok nt full of muscles. the arms and legs la. and since i din exercise much after i quit swimming, they turned into wobbily ploppy floppy ploopy fats. yux. sounds disgusting. who wants to be my friend? hah. du judge a book by its appearance okkkkk.

vanessa got back her pw comments. omg. where's mine? scared. because i know i din do well and im so not confident la. but i stil hope my grp gets A. hahaha. yes we will. YES WE WILL!!!! french rule. this is mad. i wan my pw grades back!!!! ok, this is gona end.

pretty long entry. im good! proud! really hope i get to watch chingay please. i wana go see my frenz. that's the only purpose. anyone wif free tiks pls tel me. and o, anyone who noes anyone who needs a nanny tel me too. k k? im nt gona a nanny. NOT ME! smeone else. going off to do crunches. although qt useless to me.

nitenite!

GUESS WHY AM I ONLINE NOW.
.
.
.
.
.
BECAUSE IM HELPING MY SISTER WAITING FOR FREE FURNITURE AT HABBO WEBSITE. OMG OMG OMG. THAT DAMN OWNER CANT COME INTO THE ROOM AFTER GOING OFFLINE. DO I HAVE TO WAIT FOR 10 MINS? I WANA DO MY GEOGRAPHYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

gp was ok today. but i stil hate it ok. if we have morning remedials on mon, i hope joan will be joining too.

OK I DID SMTHN WRONG AND MY SISTER'S GONA KILL ME.
i just realised there are so many people's birthdays in jan. this wasn't the case till this year. i mean al these years, so many people have their birthdays during april. this is bad you know. buying presents at the start of the year. means will be broke and after jan, i will have no more money. speaking of january, it's only the first month of the year and i feel like it's already march. this is so tiring. today i found out that izit one out of three students in america are more scared to take exams than to know of their parents dying. omg. that's horrid! i mean parents are so much more important. right? but of course!

o and i frgt to mention the second reason for disliking gp. sorry to say but it's my teacher. maybe too enthu? too excited about teaching us? im not those kind who loves debating or what. and im not smeone who loves doing group work and discussing and thinking of points for some issue. i hate those stuff. i'd rather think myself and then tel the teacher. you know what i mean? basically, i hate haTE HATE GP. ok ok? and im starting to hate chem all over again. maybe geog will be my favourite since i understand it but i cant score well. everythn's just bad la. why am i rambling on and on about this? just like what ivay said, we should not be cynical. o damn why does everythn link to gp now. and i need a letter for leaving early on fri.

alright.
sis's pestering me to leave the com now.

au revoir!

i feel so siannn that im in a jc.
its damn boring.
maybe because i don't have a real cca now.
i always wish im with uwsg.
together with them we'll join the same cca
for we have common interest i suppose.
whatever we join i'll be happy.
i met gongz just now after skoo.
thankfully gongz stays near my skoo.
at least i get to meet a member of uwsg often.
i want to achieve something when i leave school you know.
not academic wise.
i duno.
i duno what's wrong with me.
i think im qt a failure.
am i hating ny now?
i thought i have.
but my friends came to my mind.
they bring joy to me everyday.
even today.
when serene and po din come and i left skoo early because i was seriously seriously feeling unwell and i know dickson doesn't believe me.
the compre test was shit ass man.
im gona flunk it.
and of course,
im gona flunk econs. that's for certain.
i hope next week will be a better week.
i wana make clay.
but nobody wants to join with me.
if it's weekend i dun wan it thou.
how how?
ok i just realised smethng.
my ny clique is call random/ kpo association.
sorry i forgot!
o yes.
erm
i din get gongz's bd present for tmr.
what to do!??!?!?!
shit shit shit.
im so dead.
i cant wait to get to to the swimming pool with vanessa next week and celebrate jerlyn's bd please.
and i dun wana go to the class com workshop o k.
i tink only the CTs shld go.
did i mention that i hate gp and i dread gp tutorials every mon tues and fri?
i wana pon evry gp lesson.
the main reason wld be my friends aren't there!
ok maybe yes.
i must be content with it.
at least there are pple i know there.
yes yes.
anw my new fun now is rubbing eraser dust and make them so long then i will swing it over to people.
ok i think i better stop all these disgusting thngs.
jerlyn says ima disgusting person.
im sorry for being so disgusting.
dun hate me man.
im your best friend!
anw jerlyn cant read my blog.
who cares.
hah.
i have so many regrets this year already.
one regret wld be not joining chingay when christabel asked me.
i really want now.
im damn stupid.
i think im seriously dumb.
baka.
that reminds me.
i learnt french and jap at gongz's today.
bonjour monsieur
oui
ah bon
sortie, bus. ah, taxi.
au revoir.
somatsu
chichi (hey kpo association! chichi is what you call your father.)
muda
haha
anawata
guess which is french and which's jap!
and the rest i cant recall now.
cant rmb those loooooong sentences.
im gona watch nodame cantabile now.
recommended by gongz.
shal do my hw.... tonite? or sun?
hmm.
I MISS YOU YOU YOU!!!! WHERE ARE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
come find me please!
and make me laugh til i sit or lie on the floor and my stomach has muscles and my urine leaks out.
laugh laugh laugh.
shld i cry or shld i not?
i think im beginning to feel how serene and yixiu feels.
when ur inside your room or toilet and u just start to cry.
i feel like im supposed to cry.
i feel i've suffered the most.
but all aren't true.
i feel im weak inside.
i question my actions.
i dig out my past.
i dig out my regret and found i have new ones.
what's wrong man?

au revoir.

hohoho.
can you guys see the words on the drawings?
ok.
the left girl is serene.
the right girl is john aka joan.
so serene's saying "lalala"
while john is thinking "i feel so sexy"
the pet john had in her hand tied to a string is a cockroach.
that's me.
so much better than being the right woman.
sorry joan.
hahaha.
anw yixiu commented at the bottom of the page.
"Joanie is so well endowed! Pompipi!"
and new york times praised this art piece cathleen leow drew.
"A Masterpiece"
bullshit.
hah.



o ok and this.
po is innpoh.
damn cute dun you tink.




all these are courtesy of cathleen.
because she was playing a fool during.
i couldn't concentrate.

i thought i lost my watch today.
then i found it in my bag.
sorry people for making you walk here and there!
sorry sorry.

and my bag got dirty today.
soup spill.
well, i was thinking when bathing earlier,
people actually laugh when my bag got spilled with soup.
i duno who
but i felt really sad.
i know how others feel when some incident that affect them happen and others start to laugh, making them feel really bad.
that's why i almost always try my best to show concern for those who are the victims.
some incidents, making like someone falling down looking funney makes me laugh.
but, i act feel bad for them.
sometimes i do ask dem if they're ok.
iz that ok?
alright.
i shld have more empathy.
empathy is stil the 'in' word now.

i din feel like talking after geog today.
i felt so damn tired please.
maybe that's why i have triple eyelids on my left eye
BUT
none on my right.
how disgusting.

some people make me sick.

so happy together. tanny and daryl.






after this, lets stop.
im qt scared.

TIME TO BLOGGGGG!!!!!


christmas eve
christmas