removed tagboard. im going mad. comment if u want. althou its troublesome.

IM FEELIN SO MOODY RIGHT NOW. cathleen's nick is stuck in my head - 'can i please die?'
who whO wHO WHO CAN BRING ME OUT NOW.
i don't want to go to school tomorrow.
i think i am mad.
i am going crazy.
i need more life.
i need less work.
more fun.
no.
i suddenly realise i don't know what am i doing here.
i wana see HER.
and i just realised she motivated me to live on.
so that i could see her live.
but now
its all gone.
gone.
helppp.

JERLYN EMMELINE AND I. the day we rocked the beach. the eve of the eve of chi new year.

hey guys. i've got music up on my blog. nelly furtado's all good things come to and end. perhaps changing to 'digits' soon. organizing photos now so please wait! dun tink i can post all photos up because too many and there are also those dating two weeks or more ago. iyah. and i duno what happened to the stuff at my blogs. like the credits and archive. they jsut shifted to the left on its own so now there's like a line across my blog. can u guys see? sickenin. but im gona leave it just as it is. i took new photos of dania. darn cute. but she was emo in the day. jsut like her odler sis. but in the nite she went high like on drugs.

my uncle came and i overheard conversation about cny celebrations. i guess this yr wun be quiet althou grandma is gone. activities are planned. includin bbq. i just hope everyone will have fun on that day and not be sad over grandma. but this yr's gona be special. instead of reunion dinner at my hse we're havin it at uncle's place. dad tot sadness may be evoked. so we're all movin. instead of lively chatterin on that nite at our place with grandma arnd for everyone to talk to, it'll be al quiet. al dark. al empty. i wonder if she'll cme back. will she? i hope she finds her way to uncle's place. im stil nt over her yet. it has been about 4 mths. cryin at nite seems to be a norm for me. forget bout this issue. i'll skip.

i just cant wait for next week. its gona b fun. and i cant wait for my skoo's road run ok. as in run for fun not competitively like my poor friends such as vanessa and emmeline. hah. anw i wana apologize to yixiu. heyman if ur readin this, i still feel bad for not going around looking for u that nite at 'the one'. sorry for not shouting ur name out loud as well. all of us are apologetic. but i couldnt see you arnd when i look back and forth. i duno why i cant get over that incident. perhaps becasue i was lost frm my frenz more than once. and i was really lost. alone in the crowd. and i felt really disappointed. they din cme back for me. rite, off to organize photos again. see u frenz.

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im currently at gongz hse. using her new cool laptop and the new blogger. wa im sad! i want laptop please! GP was pretty bad for me today. i duno what happened to me ok. i was like brain dead. i couldnt think properly i couldnt digest what i said durin presentation either. omg ok. i even said huh to my teacher when she din say a thng to me. i think after talking to tanny in canteen i felt weird. man. evil aura. and i have also already flunked my maths test. i couldnt integrate a simle simple really simple thng ok. im damn disappointed. wth is wrong wif me today la. time to wake up man. im gona get one digit. that reminds me of the song 'digits'. u gus, must go download and listen.

chem was pretty good. teacher was nt bad. but i seriously wan the female enthu mad funney crazy teacher. hahahah. i kept yawnin throughout the whole tutorial. wenta town after skoo and bumped into denise and bf twice. jerlyn, are you readin this? omg gongz's laptop is nice to use. i love the keyboard ok. i hope i dun spoil it la. o anw. we wanted to eat subway budden decided to go out. wad to eat at subway!?!? we just couldnt decide. off to lido.. zinger meal sux. maybe it'll be the last tme im eating it. i was rushin today and i stuffed the food into my mouth ok. feel like vomittin now stil. we were late for 'the one', ny's version of project superstar. damn bus. cutlet was inside. seow joan damn hilarious. she said cutlet and charge. charge was supposed to be said as judge. cutlet i cant say. hah. ok then there's this extremely rude korean who spoke korean to innpoh. but it was not her fault la. from what i know and see, the woman is speakin in korean loudly on purpose. jsut because she knows we dun understand. i felt the best thng to do was not to speak. we were wearin out uni and bus was extremely packed. well, her husband kept quiet. and when i stared at them well they perhaps did not look back on purpose or they really din noe i was starin. hmm.wads wrong with her???

'the one' was pretty... erm... sianzzzz. the contestants arent really gooood. i seriously want s4 to win. i duno who she is ok. damn im damn disappointed. judges were pretty blunt. i think only one grp n one individual sang eng songs. grrrrrr. whywhywhywhywhy! chi songs usually make me sleep ok. ok then xiao lu dou frm project superstar came. because we sat far frm the stage, couldnt take a proper pic or video. as im typin my eyes are closin. and i stil feel like vomittin out the zinger. zinger, i hate you. its makin me hate mcspicy oso althou i seriously love it. i duno why. cathleen doesnt wana pick up her damn fone! changed my mind and wanted to hav supper wif them and 2 other strangers. o well. its late. maybe they are off. i need one mp3. any sponsors? tiredtired.

gongz i noe ur readin this. can u lnd me ur laptop fOR A WEEK? hahaha. in exchange for the girl necklace i gave u. hah. sorry guys for not posting photos. and i wana change my tagboard.. shaomin? haha. i hope nex week will be good. as in really good. today was pretty suay. din attend skoo ytd. yay! stomach cramp. first time ok. and i tot my menses's comin. sianz. i waited one mth oredi stil haven cme? can u pls cme menses? im worried. i think im callin my dad to pick me up now. anw vanessa, i updated for u. act, no la. hahaha.

goodnite everybody.
byebye.