joan: erm... i want 10. can? for my whole house. where's the priest? block 123? wa you're so braveeeee. anw, ultimate SHITTT!!! hah.

flopping fish: i think you're the smelly one because you are THE FISH. still flopping. are you out of water? GET OUT OF YOUR SMELLY WORLD LEOW CATHLEENNNNNNN HAHHAHA.

shaomin: you've gotta reply my in msn! ok you're always away when im online whywhywhy. reply ok? about the concert and heyheyhey! your bd comin. msg me bout concert then i ask u about bd thng. MEEEETTTTT UPPPPPPPP.

pam: omg i said your son. O SHIT. u know what i thought i was your son omg. im gettin confused how could i. im your dad. ok son, your dad's bd is comin up. and the neighbour, kshaomin's also. hah. stop your taekwondo NOW!

poh: pooo. o nonono not poo but Po. im notnotnot tzeeeee okkkk. pink is so not my colour. i like green and red now. and a bit of yellow.

3 entries a day i must be mad.
april's fool is on sunday people.
hahaha.
dun worry you're NOT gona get any prank ok.
hooooooooooohaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

byebyebyebyebeybyebebbebrerbqabwhbab
byeeeeeeeeeee.

i got this from jerlyn's blog.

whenever you do feel burnt out,
it is not because u are,
but rather you are discouraged by the things to do.
so dun ever be in a position where u get discouraged.

true?
initially i thought it true then i again i thought,
what if its truly being burnt out?

i got my papercut today after sucha long time.
im not sadistic ok.
then i got reminded of gongz cutting her finger with my penknife accidentally
omg
bloodyyyyyy
and her blood turned black did it?
well mine didn't gongz
hahaha.

anw new fav song,
FALL OUT BOY!!!
this aint a scene, its an arms race.
man why din they add the 'damn' in that when its in the song hah.
well obviously i know the reason so im being mad.

dragonboat tmr!
i hope to see 'jean's incident' hahaha.
people with menses, BEWARE!
ok that's me.
anw im used to rowing the boat with menses.
i have a thing for menses and boats.
right.
actually i dun wana row competitively,
i wana row for fun.
just our class people.
rowing.
dayong sampan you know.
slow and steady.
ok then surely confirm guaranteed 100% chop last in place.
DON'T CARE LA!

you know, i can just relate myself to someone's blog.
i can just,
see myself.
why is she saying the things that described how i felt.
such a coincidence.
is she my reflection.
is she the inner side of me.
the side i dun show.
somehow,
i admire her.
and im gona tell that person about it at the end of the year haha.
if i remember.

i really miss the babies,
seeing them smetmes reminds me of granny.
there is sme relation.
sme events stuck deep in my head.













granny granny,
where are you when i needa see you
when i needa reassure my self-existence
my purpose of living.
you inspire me to press on
to fight on
to defend
to love
because,
you are my purpose.

TAGS TAGS
joan: yellow paper? you help me get? hahah. later that priest ask me drink the water with the yellow paper inside.

dickson: i got ken at hme leh. i think maybe too little ken and too many barbies. mistresses angry.

tanny: you will not become my favourite. never never because i swear ronaldinho is the bestest best best always forever more. hahahhaha.

yixiu: you bigbutt. awooooo. and sssssssss. NOT SKINNY. NOTTTTTTTTTTTT!

joanne: eh then why din you choose this blogskin! the fat boy so cute. ok im changing soon. maybe after i type this. you're welcomed to my room anytime to find the ghost ok.

pam: i shal go your school one day when i pick up a 100 dollar note how bout that. deal? you have a son?!?!? WHAT?!?!??! you mean bitbit? WHAT!

simple: sssssssssssss. TNT. clapmyhand clapmythighs clapmyhands and clampmythighs. ssssssssssssssss.

I AM SOSOSOOSOSOSOSOSOOSOSOOOOOOOOSO glad we aren't having thurs pe with 0605 please. i don't hate the entire class ok. in fact there are damn nice people there but one person just irks me to the core. ya and of course no more disgusting pe teacher woohoo. ok the sad thing is, i'll be separated from the rest of my clique damnit. EH WHY YOU ALL LIKE THATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. ssssssss.

i reached home at 12pm today.
jealous?
hahahhahahahaha.
i could reach home at 1130am.
maybe next week! yayyyyy.
1st week of school seemed so damn short.
mon was onli 3 freakin hrs of school then off to town.
tues was a stay home day.
wed no cca yippeeeeeee.
thurs 12pm.
how great can this week get.
of course not so great.
so far i've got a U and a S for maths and econs.
sssssss.
i don't dare to tell my dad howhowhow.

im in linkin park's website ok you so have to go.
67 735 mins to midnight.
I AM GOING TO GET THEIR ALBUM OKKKKKKKKKKKKK.
omg damn.
its only coming out in may WTH.
i just realised linkin park sounded like linkin fark ytd.
i was telling my sister about linkin park then the fark just came to my mind.
man.
linkin fark?
linkin fark yes.
but still, i LOVE THEM.
chester and mike, ooooahhhh.

tired.
next up,
freedom writers.
o yeaaaaaaaaaa.
im gona cry in that movie i swear.
hah ya even before i watched it i can predict my reactions how pro is that.

anw random, i know we are pretty disappointed with out results, well maybe except joan. so joan, you can not read this hah. but i guess joan worked pretty hard. studies one week for maths while me, only one day. im sorry, less than one day. ya so random if kena nite studying i hope we'll all be in this together and i seriously seriously so hope that we won't be called in kwek's office. we'll be with each thru all these, thru all the tense moments before getting our results. handinhand, we'll get thru this. we'll work so darn hard everyone's gona be shocked aren't we. hah ok.

im getting a new hairstyle yay.
but what?
i duno.
mad.
ok gona change skin now. hah.
looooookout ok!

today, i realise how great my mother is.
just today, i realise how much i miss my grandma.
today, i realise how great the food are my mother prepares everyday.
just today, i feel like entering my grandma's room once more.
alone.
just today.







blah. menses is an obstruction when you want to dragonboat.
i remembered what happened to jean during our guides' dragonboat. o hahaha.
o man i seriously miss dragonboating with the guides.
funfunfunfunfunfunfun.

bye,
yes bye,,,,,,,
bye.

STOMP THE YARD WAS OOOOOOOAHHHHHHHHH WEEEEE AHWOOOOOOO SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. if you wached you know what i mean. i totally am motivated to learn hiphop now. but unfortunately, not now. hai.

anw got back maths. o my holy shit. im so dead. and im not telling my parents yet. maybe later. i'll see. hah. darn scared please. please let me pass like 2 or 3 subs please please please.

hey im skinny and i have big boobs.













ok i am kidding.
yixiu im no thicka skina.
sookchan, maybe in your mind im skinny with bigboobs.
serene, ali, ok the same person, im letting everyone know you're a girl.
cathleen, i regret sitting beside you for movie.
innpoh, YOU DIN KNOW WHICH TRAIN YOU WERE TAKING MAN!
joan, you weren't there!

met mum and sis after movie.
bubble tea!
stupid cheater uncle cheat us.
want pearl no pearl.
o man im having a terrible backache.

ok gtg.
sissssssssteerrrrrrrrrrrr wana useeeeeeeeeeee.
omg my maths.
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

i keep thinking im gona die soon.
my neck hurts.
my shoulder hurts.
my head hurts.
consecutively for more than three days.
ya anw.

on friday i went tpy then town with mummy.
then aj to meet jerlyn gongz xiany etc.
so many guides ok. hah.
i saw smebody's eyecandiessssss.
so much better than ny.
that reminds me.
this j1 frm ny said on radio once that pj has more chiobus than ny BUT ny has more cute guys tha pj.
o man i wanted to die when i heard that.
true?
of course not!
that's why i said i study in a place with monks.
sorry to guys frm ny hah.
o and anw the eyecandies were qt short. hah.
but really, not bad.
man. jealous jealous.
i had fun playing the games at aj. they had games ok!
the table soccer game and the table where you hit the small round flat disc thng into your opponent's 'hole'.
i played til i perspire and i was damn high.
anw thanks man.
i had fun. aj aj....

met up with sookchan
bought bread for innpoh and brought it to her at kbox.
out after 15mins.
waved goodbye to poh and ali.
walked walked.
stil cant persuade sookchan to go to OG orchard.
one day.
one day...
ya and i told her i was going to die soon.
ok other than that i told her other stuff hah.

met yixiu cathleen.
yay!
ate dinner.
o anw we wasted so much tme looking for the stupid toilet at centrept.
but it was fun looking fer it.
we stalked two women so we could go to the toilet but in the end we lost them.
lousy spies.
anw conclusion.
they are biased.
onli gents on one floor.
next floor there're females and gents.
females damn small.
back to eating after washing hands of course.
cathleen and sookchan din wash hands.
cathleen, who's the smelly one now.
saw cathleen's ex crush.
atually, i couldnt see the whole time.
no fate.
walked.
and had fun callin "xiuzy" and "chaniii" in the lowlowlowlowlow voices.
hahaha.

ok dinner out later.
hope to go jogjog with jerlyn tmr.
IF WE CAN WAKE UP.

I CANT WAIT FOR MONDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!

so far my life's good.
but i still think im dying soon.
damn barbie.

HELOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
ok. that meant heloooooooooooooooooooooo!

im so glad and i mean really really 150% glad block test is over. after longer hrs of slp my neck stil hurts. damn. and im not even thinking whether i will fail or pass gp please. the answer is clear. i told my mother im dead and she din comment on that. you know nowadays im really really really paranoid. paranoid that my mother my only grandmother and grandfather left will just leave. everytime i get an unknown missed call or a missed call from my home i will feel insecure, thinking back on what happened the other time. ok nvm. im just paranoid. o speaking of that. www.goodybooks.com/ibelieveyou.htm. its about a paranoid girl but there's no ending cause you've gotta buy the book itself wth i was damn angry so maybe you guys shld get angry over it too. hah. what a good sales gimmick. i was tempted to buy the book after the showed the 'last' chapter.

O and i have another scary incident and this time it was even scarier that before. i was thinking maybe it's the curse of the barbie. i think it was on tues night. i was studying thru the night. at about 3 plus my room door was still closed althou i had already switched the air con off. ok so it was all damn quiet that i can hear the 'eeeeeeeee' sound. you know the sound you hear when it's really stuffy? ya then i thought as usual, the water will flow down the pipe in the toilet. but this time it wasnt the same. i could tell. the sound was totally different. it sounded so much like a man peeing into a toilet bowl. A MAN? wth. yea and that pee stayed for more than 30 secs. why is it so loooong?!?!? ya anw after that maybe cause im hallucinating maybe im hearing thngs maybe its just true, i heard a man from the toilet whispering my name. like "zinc.." really softly. ok that really creeped me out like a million zillion fallion shit. im having goosebumps again. OMG MAN. i wanted to die ok and i tot i was going to die. and the name kept ringing in my ear so i read my notes out loud i was still super creeped out. a few mins later i wenta open the room door and off to slp. the next morning i forgot the whole incident until when i came hme on wednesday. i told my mother and she said she had this buddha pendant thng in my room. its like a round pendant hanging in front of my teddy bear. she said it protects the whole room from dirty things. for once i actually believe ok. because i was desperate. right.. curse of the barbie. i was thinking if it was my granny but then how cme she became a man? and how cme she needed to pee like a man? she doesnt have a penis what. or maybe she became a man. ah whatever.

I AM SUPPOSED TO GO TO SR TODAYYYYYYYY. but no im no going after all. if i go i cant really meet emmeline and christabel anw. their break is so damn early! nvm i'll crash soon. tmr, another school. watch out, that school.

anw, shld i change blogskin? is black damn yucky? is the font colour too bright? does reading my entry make you go 'blind'? maybe i'll keep changing till im satisfied yay.

okkk.

vanessa: always we pangseh each other in the end cant swim at all. i think my menses coming hah. man.
pam: oy! tot you said you creating a new blog? why no more! whywhywhy.
dickson: barbie princess? so you mean its evil?the barbie i dropped doesnt look like a princess at all. hair so big and messy.
jerlyn: man!haven seen you for more than a week.but anw i'll see you soon.weeeeee.

anw, al the best to cathleen and yixiu.
im still having a headache. since ytd. what shit.
ytd was the first time out of million yrs that i forwarded a message in hotmail. i was so slow ok. i took more than 10 mins to choose the people to snd to. and i couldnt find some people whom i wana snd to. i strolled down the list twice and my eyes hurt so bad. this is mad. i was so sick and angry im not gona forward any message anymore. ah hmm. see first la. when im feeling good i'll forward. hah.

my sister's hating redcross now. she wana joins gb cause they wenta sentosa to play waterbomb at night and are able to sleep in the air coned chapel for camp. hah. she's so spoilt ok. SPOILT. and i know you're gona read this sister! ahhaha. don be sad or angry la. i buy you sweet from home. hah.

okkk.
hungry!
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

SORRY GONGZ
SORRY VANESSA
SORRY JERLYN

but i have to say thank you as well for forgiving me. i'll make it up i promise. thank you especially to jerlyn because i am busy with muggin.
Although i tried hard to study i think i failed. actually i am prepared to stay for night studying or maybe get encouraged by kwek to stay back one year. maybe night studying will be good for me.
im dead dead.
cant wait for thurs please.
i din even see the children today.
what a dissapointment.

i slept at 4am last night. before that i was studying in my air-conditioned room. then something scary happened. i think at about 3am it sounded like someone was trying to open my door. i thought o maybe my mother but it wasn't. i kept staring at the door and so many thoughts, scary ideas came popping to my mind. i was darn scared i swear. then the sound keeps coming on and off on and off.
i don't even dare to sleep please. so i waited and waited on my bed until 3 plus. finally my mother came in and she opened the door. she saved my sleep ok. i don't know what the hell was happening and as im typing this im having goosebumps. today i pushed a barbie doll down the table real hard and on purpose. i got damn scared after that because i think i believe that they have spirits. omg this is getting holy. soon after i kept shitting. my stomach got really painful on and off. guess what i even apologised to the barbie doll. now you know im a big darn scaredy cat. so please don't try to scare me. o shit how am i going to survive thru the long night tonite studying. i am so dead. will barbie come after me? eh it isn't funney ok.

anyhow, study hard people. it will be all over in 4 days. just FOUR FREAKIN DAYS!

BOOOOO
ok i scared myself in the end.
ya anw,
LOVE

i found old pictures of me.
im in the middle and on the left repectively.
hey i changed already ok.
no longer that ugly.
someone pleasse leave a comment telling me im not as ugly as i think i am.

everybody, i mean so many are feeling emoemoemo now that im feelin that too.
its contagious.
i just feel that there's a need to type this although its gona be another typical emo entry.
so many problems
so much sadness
have we created them ourselves?
or is it what the society is giving us?
at this moment in time, i wish to be knocked off.
emotions are contagious.
the power of words.
words express emotions.
thus feeling so damn down.
i almost broke down.
what if,
we die today?
we die in our sleep?
and we wake up looking at out own body lying on our bed.
any regrets?
any regrets of feeling so emotional and down because of what life has given us?
any regrets of blogging about how down and troubled we feel?
i duno.
perhaps i'll only know it when im actually dead.
i really always do think.
what if i die in my sleep tonight.
the people i'll miss most would be my family.

yesterday, the thought of closing down my blog or rather letting it rot until perhaps december hols came to my mind. i was about to pend down my thoughts yesterday on blogger and when i was about to type the first alphabet i just closed the explorer. how undetermined i am. i am really a damn fickle minded person. that's why sometimes i have problems with fickle minded people like deciding where to go. one person of such would be vanessa. hahahah. hold on. but in the end we'll still make a decision ok. do not look down on us. egs of unfickled minded people will be jerlyn gongz. so the moral of this paragraph is that i will now close down my blog after all.

ok i have to blog about this. and the title of this paragraph shall be bitches. 'bitches'. after shutting down my com ytd to take a nap, this incident kept lingering in my mind, making me so frustrated that i couldn't sleep. i slept so late that when i woke up the sky was so dark. and i haven't even touched any hw. ya anw. it happened during my thursday pe session with some bitch teacher. anw bitch doesn't have to be a female. i din noe what he said bout our class people until innpoh told me during break. OMG I SWEAR I WAS DAMN MAD OK. if i heard that i would question him already im serious. what kinda teacher is HE man. saying such rude and uncivilised comments. doesn't fit to be a teacher at all while basically he's not even a good teacher. not even an average one. i thought i could tolerate him being biased towards some people from the other class but now i couldn't. so hey man, i no longer think i can tolerate you anymore. don't expect me to really listen to what you are saying, maybe just a little bit. or perhaps i'll just pretend to listen. THEN, there's this E___ girl from the other. o how is it not obvious now who she is. STOP KICKING THE BALL SO FAR AWAY AND THEN ACT LIKE YOU'RE COOL AND IT'S FUNNY TO DO SUCH ACTION AND THEN LAUGH LIKE A SICKENING OLD PIECE OF SHIT OLD HAG. play like you're actually playing a real soccer game will you old shit. after kicking the damn ball so far away and so hard you run away and then leave us, my class girls, to go get your stinky feet ball at the left, right front, back of the field? OMG. YOU ARE SUCH A SICK IN THE HEAD HORRENDOUS DISASTROUS FUCKIN BITCH. i totally hate you to the core please. and i think its fate that i keep seeing you around. so everytime i see you i'll think of what you actually did and so i'll never forget that i hate you so much that i can bleed till i die. whatever. so everytime you see me looking at you o please DO NOT THINK YOU"RE PRETTY. because you are not. its because i hate you so much i imagine me pulling your rubber band out so your ponytail come off and punching your tummy till you fly away and ... im tired of talking about you. so anw, i'll just move on.

fianlly the long awaited march hols is here. woohoo. even thou i need to study for the block test coming after the hols, i am still happy. i prefer studying at home, outside, in school, all without going to school early to attend lectures, lessons with a schedule. i hate schedules. i hate going from one class to another when the bell rings. o wait. i think i am sounding like someone omg. hahahha. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. i love school ok. because cathleen innpoh serene sookchan yixiu joan are there. plusplus there's kangkong on certain days. plusplus, there's handicapped toilet for me to use. PLUS! i like walking home listening to.. to wait i cant say. hah.

few more episodes of 'hua yang...' to go. hols, here i come! im gona play. AND study at the same time laaaa. meeting up with people i haven meet for 'ages'.

nitenite.

http://www.crunchyroll.com/showmedia?id=31987

ost: im a cyborg but its ok.
so darn cute ok.
sorry if you cant see.
such a pity!
the song is so stuck in my head.
and im repeatin the song over and over again into my ears.

im not really crazy crazy over him. just like. thats all. hah. ok photos courtesy of sookchan. i got to say that because if not she's will take her revenge on me. sorry for punching you man. i'll try again next time. maybe you can have some reaction? hah. funney. o and anw sookchan,
EATING CHOCOLATE MAKES YOU LOOK LIKE P___ CUTLET.