waiting waiting...
for heroes to load.
man, hiro is totally cool.

anw, im removing hoolaboolah, my monkey pet. i wanted to remove long ago, just that i either keep forgetting or just plain lazy. laziness is going to kick in from tomorrow onwards. die.


VANESSA: since when did your name become vanessae. good swim today. but not much tan. only the back. i can see the criss cross on my back now. eh hows ur good fren, natalia.


JOAN: photos! ahha. very little. wait till i see you online. then you must remind me.


SIMPLE: you are the pangseh queen. and the come-for-two-outings person. hah. hmm. about that, im not running away frm reality. i cant possibly do so. how? face up? but that's the truth i know. you know, some things just come to your mind so inevitably. anytime anyplace. things that people say can trigger off that things you dun ever want to remember. thanks for this anw, thanks sister.


PAMELA: i need my family now. i needa see you, my son, asap. meet me at the garden outside our house. 12am. i let you molest the maid. flick poke and what?!??! shoot? hah. i seriously feel damn bad not going to the concert.


SHAOMIN: thanks for taggin once in a blue moon! hah. i tag urs too. and i really think the boa in ur blog looks like ur best friend. anw, dun be bu gan yuan. forget it la. hah. eh thanks for introducing the flying rabbit game! damn scary thou.


CATHLEEN: i mean smelly fish, why change ur nick! i din flirt ok. you are the one who flirt. do not deny. anw its qt ok sittin next to you now. wait. i duno. stop starin at me. although i know its hard not to. and lemmi draw on ur paper please.


YIXIU: ur taggin! hmm. so weird. you're qt free ah. kiddin. i think its ok to still miss her and cry for her, imagining she might walk into the house one day and give me a hug. its normal i guess. im strong. i dun break. this is life yes. and i will still cont to cry. thanks man. and thanks for trusting in me for that thing about you. i wish you luck and happiness forever and ever from this month onwards. hah. don't be scared! live for the moment. and o yes, where's my stop and stare song! damn nice. i hope ur mum wun switch off the switch while snding me the song man. damn funney. ok maybe to you its not funney. omg damn long this reply.


XIANY: XIANY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! where have you been! near farrer park yes i know. hah. come to my house! i still remember the dragon in your house. i wana go outtttttttttttt. let's wait for jerlyn's camp to be over. den we can all meetup. yay. prolly you wana buy my bd present first? erm, hah.




damn. heroes is damn slow in loading.
all i wana say now is,
thanks a lot friends,
im lucky i have this blog and the tagboard because previously i felt so lost without my phone.
yes, i lost it,
again.
so im using my sis's sim card now.
and i lost qt a few contacts.
grrrrr.
i hate losing that.
so ya anw,
you can contact me at my old no, yes the same one, from mon onwards.
im gona have to start asking people for their nos again.
helpp.


tonite's dinner was weird?
why weird?
i felt weird.
i was home yes.
i was so darn tired even after a short nap in the evenin.
and then i was filled up so quickly.
salmon, tofu, potato balls, veg, mushroom soup.
too much protein?
that's what my dad said.


today, vanessa and i went swimming after my gp exam.
speaking about that,
OMGGGGGGG.
its like grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. die already.
ok back to the swimming part.
she had her braces on. haahaha. not ugly la!
you better know what i mean man.
so we walked to the changing room.
guess what was the first thing i saw?
o yea o yea.
yixiu's favourite,
boobies!
long big saggy boobs belonging to a china woman.
o yea.
who's getting high now.
together with her there were others, whom i din dare to look at.
so whether they are naked, half naked, dressed or whatever, i duno.
initially i was like, "hmm, ok."
so what ya? so what?
because i've seen naked women in changing room before.
they kept walking to and fro the bench and the cubicle.
right.
then came along vanessa's favourite friend, natalia, the indian cleaner.
damn funney la she!
i seriously couldn't catch what she was saying.
only vanessa could.
got the bond, got the fate, got the love.
she was like complaining complaining.
and then there was this mother who wanted to take a picture of the naked women and send to stomp.
WOAH.
damn cool.
hah.
but i was like, no please.
natalia wanted to take photo too.
did she vanessa?
i think she did.
then something struck me.
the mother said what if some little boy comes into the room with his mum?
yea.
i was like, o yea.
and i started to hate those bitches.
i saw their pubic hair.
it looked shaved.
well first things vanessa saw when she entered was the buttock.
haha.
wa lao.
boy leh!
boy see naked female stranger.
omg.
no way no way.
someone told the lifeguard and he came near the entrance and shouted "hello. lifeguard coming to spot check." etc etc and spoke in mandarin asking them to not change outside. and he keeps repeating. the funney things is, the bitches just stood there and did nothing. i assumed they stoned because i din wana look at them.


then we went swimmmingggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhhhhhh. my favourite sport ok. the sun was being anal. playing hide and seek. anw i thought i saw some rules at swimming saying no bikinis allowed.


back to the changing room and natalia came again. talked to vanessa aH! favourite already.


wenta eat and back home.
told my family bout it.
dad was ok with it but i told him little boys do go in and he was like o ya, then its bad.
my mum started talking about some china women who are really daring and they are becoming increasingly open now. open as in being really sexual, attracting, flirting with male strangers on the street.
i asked my dad bout army and about gays in changing rooms cause they'll all be naked.
he said duno la.
"i've never encountered that before,
but they surely happy la."
and he had this cheeky smile.
hoho.




enough said about that.
to wawanee, if you're reading this,
sorry.
i thought we din confirmed anything and i din know you bought tiks for us until pamela told me. and you din snd me the message bout place and time. ok that isn't important.
but really sorry.
i hope it went well for you.
i owe you one.


as im typing this, i see fire downstairs.
they are burning somethings.
i guess its for funeral purposes.
then it got me reminded again.
some place near that area,
i stood there near the fire, feeling the heat but i din wana move away.
i almost felt myself burning.
until i couldn't tolerate, i moved away.


the weather's super hot.
i went to the doc on fri and i was told my throat was swollen and polka dotted.
immediately i thought of white dots.
eeeeew.
yuck please.
ok.
3 litres of water a day.
the relief doc is really uber nice.
the other one was away on hol.
she's fat.
growing fatter and fatter.
lik mum said, she took too much 'good' food.
and, she's a doc.
o.
yes, a doctor who is gaining wt over the years.
man.
and i hate her face.
her expressionless face.
her attitude.
my throat hurts damn lots.
its the worst sore throat i've ever.
after ruturning from swimming i couldnt really speak to my family.
whenever i do, it hurts badly.


o yes and did i mention somebody is making me hate him more and more.
damn poser.
and he's certaininly getting more unpopular.
why can't he stop and think.
see what he's doing.
hear what he's saying.
is he good enough for this.
is he worth our time, our wait.
why can't he see his own weaknesses and yet see that of others so clearly
or maybe he even faked them up.
great.
beast.
fugly.
he made me say it.
shit hole, i hate you.
i almost wish you never exist.




insects do bug me.

i want to reply my tags so much but im super lazy. no wonder no one wants to tag anymore. sorry men. i need emo songs instantly. my foot hurts again. what's wrong with my ankle, my foot, my spinal tail. what's wrong. im turning emo. i think i need to be emo. i might be tomorrow in school. i hate laughing so hard in school and then going home and then turn emo. as in, i am seriously darn happy at home, with my funney and great parents and the excitement they together with my sister, gives me. but, when i am all alone, i look back at the past. i look back at the year i cried the most. the year i will never forget. the year i came to a jc for the first time. the year i meet great new exciting different kinds of people who gave me different feelings. the year i regret going out of sr. the year i met happy go lucky friends in sr. the year i met random. the year i really bonded with my parents because i truly neglected my family life previously. so many many things. and the year a few people left in my life. one great friend. one great part of me, my granny. she took the happiness from me. i wouldn't be so sad with her around. from the everyday meeting to 'pop'! the bubble just burst and she's gone so instantly. nanyang sucks. i hate it. because if i wasn't in nanyang i would have answered that phone call. THE phone call. The messages. undeleted. no one reads my messages. can't. no. you know, after she left, i felt the big family is trying so hard to keep us all together. that would be her wish yes. but evidently, it is still inevitable that the undesirable has taken place. i no longer see those i see so often when she was around. painful. its so quiet now, as compared to the past. cny is going to be weird for us. its going to be quiet. real quiet. then maybe one day my aunty will love out from the flat upstairs and it will become even quieter. i did not even dream of her. i need my medicine. my dosage of granny everyday. i duno why i am rambling so much about the past. i duno why i still can't forget. its hard yes but its still fresh in my head. i feeling like mutilating myself. so stupid. tze yin is stupid. gp is the time i turn emo. i duno why. gp lessons make me wonder many many things no one knows. gp lessons enables me to look back, to locate what i hate to recall most. i feel good after typing it out. and then i thought dania could 'save' me. for a moment she did. then, she's gone too. where's hope. "i need you. and you."


i saw a granny who looks like mine last week. well, maybe all grannies look the same from the back view. she was on a wheelchair and her maid was sitting next to her on a bench at the park under my block. without any sec to think, i totally heated up and i thought i was going to breakdown but no, only a well up of tears. i can feel her hands, her hug, her kiss, her smell. i can recall me lying next to her on the sofa laughing so much, her bathing for me and i totally hated it but i didn't know how to reject her offer. i can recall her teaching me the hand games but with 100% regret i forgot; the time i accidentally swung a toy car at her head, closing the car door with her finger stuck in between and when she fell, down the stairs and in my home. and so coincidentally, her photo just came up on my desktop sidebar. why, is she here? i duno.


i hate this.

how will i be tomorrow.

goodness.



why can't she be an immortal.

why can't she go with me.

why can't i see her for the last time.

i hate my phone.

i am super duper tired now.
i never ever want to go back to my old sleeping time every weekday.
i cant take 2am sleep.
i need 1145pm.


im glad i met xiany.
=)))


tired ah!


swimswim.

IT'S MOTHER'S DAY!!!!!!
HAPPY MUMMY DAY MA!

me and my sis, treated her.
and of course, we had to treat our dad as well.
later he jealous.
the tulips turned out to be damn nice!
i love the inside.
o man, i love love love tulips now.
esp the red ones.
oooooo ahhh.
it gives me great satisfaction please.


haha. look at my ah pa.

my dad told us to go quickly after eating.
turns out he wanted to go home to shit.
no wonder he asked us to leave earlier.
haiya.
and he only told us after reaching home and going into the toilet.




and since today is 12 may 07,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SOOOOOOKKKKKK CHANNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!


and now we know you like my card and the necklace we all bought for you!
well, actually it was cathleen who bought it.
hah.
but we paid!
and you got your necklace at the boobs now!
and where's my necklace?
hah.


had our brunch at spageddies.
o man.
it was gooooood.
i love spageddies.
maybe innpoh sookchan and joan will beg to differ.
because their spagetties were oily, or so they claimed. hah.
then we had the blackforest cake.
since there were half of it left and nobody wanted to eat, we played the 'guess the no and the loser will have to eat' game.
in the end, me catheen joan DID NOT kena.
hahahha.
wait.
did joan?
i was damn lucky.
suay ones include innpoh yixiu sookchan.
yixiu and sookchan are the worst ok. esp yixiu. eat the most.
o i rmbed!
cathleen kena-ed and she ALMOST ate the black pepper cream cake.
dang.
then, yixiu got high and started playing the 'trying to be funney' game.
we were sitting at the side so people walking past spageddies can see us.
and me and innpoh were the victims because the rest are facing away from the crowd.
so yixiu tried to be funney by hiding behind the sofa and waved to strangers walking past.
most of the times she failed.
lousy.
but she succeeded thrice.
ahha.
and it was hilarious.
i have videos.
we saw this auntie.
o man.
hahahha.
and she decided to pop her head out suddenly when someone walked past.
wa lao.
but its funney.
YIXIU, YOU ARE MAD.
that's a compliment.
you told me by calling me mad is a compliment.
so im giving u back what you said.
happy.
welcome.


o yes. i found the -someone- in spageddies funney with a funney accent.
ok.
i think he's italian.
hota plathe- hot plate
and he keeps repeating.
wooo ahh.
im starting to like him now.
as in the accent.


ok, here, funney picture.

HOPE YOU ENJOYED YOUR DAY SOOKCHAN!
EVEN THOUGH WE DIN PLAY DAIDEE.
I ENJOYED MINE.
BECAUSE SPENT QUALITY TIME TOGETHER.
HAVING FUN.
TALKING.
YAY.




and on 10 may 07, it was KUSHINA GURUNG'S BIRTHDAY.
so, all the way from singapore,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GURUNG!
i really really hope you'll read this.
if not, nvm,
anw i've already sent you an email.
this photo i've found was way back.

erm.
sec 4?
yes.
with my mad friends i love so much.
missing missing you a lot gurung.
well, all i had to say was in the email already.
keep in touch please.
i'll fly over soon.

and then i'll be like you, with my luggage.
smile gurung, when you see me.




ok.
on friday, me and serene went to buy cake for sookchan's birthday.
after that i was supposed to go her house ok.
grrrr.
but i let that opportunity slip through my hands.
nvm.
still got chance.
next week.
eh serene, dun pretend say din bring keys ah.
in the end we walked to the japanese cemetery park.
i duno exactly how long we took to reach there but i think approximately 45 mins.
although i think we can take 30 mins, by walking from kovan mrt.
after really getting lost we decided to ask this woman and she gave me goosebumps ok.
saying better don't go.
if we sense smthn wrong we better go quickly and yadda yadda.
seriously, i felt cold for a moment.
before that we asked several erm, foreign student front his campus nearby.
apparently, they din know there was a cemetery nearby.
maybe they will move soon?
ahhaha.
the cemetery PARK was not a bit eerie.
its nice actually.
and i found shi4 nei4 shou4 yi1! the general we learnt in our chi textbook.
hah.
coolio.
anw, people, go visit one day.
after that we walked out and found ourseves darn far away from kovan mrt.
like five busstops away.
so we took a bus back.
omggggggooooodnesss.
good exercise.
but damn damn damn hot that day.
could have gone to swim.
all vanehneh fault.
i mean vanessa.
haiya!
always cheat me ok.
pangsehhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!


im darn tired now.
and i realised i haven used to word dope.
dun suit me la xiao min.
and i haven seen christabel for a long long time.
almost saw her on friday please.
hey you!
how could you lie to me about the dismissal time!
hah.
kiddin kiddin.
go in sr so weird.
with my school u.
NO WAY.
i tried before.
so many eyes looked at me please.




tag replies:


sihui: ooo. not in ny? so where's your eyecandy? mj izit. go there so many times for soccer match. and so, now i know your motive for going there.


shaomin: but you always take very long to update! do you? o maybe the unglam photos of me no more. i must confiscate your camera next time i meet you. omg i saw jiawei and yuanling today. and shit jiawei the loser for calling me tze ling. wtf. and i saw yuanling for like 1 sec? hah.


simple: orh hor. you abandon your ah bu on her birthday and on mother's day. orh horrrrrrr.... you then wear low cut la. 3km valley.


joan:all scare scare? hahha. scared scared la! ahhahha. i wana join eating club! but not permanent. like wana join then go in. dun feel like eating then i quit. can? please? you're the president right. got outing? hah.




that's all.
tze yin needs to buck up on her studies badly.
seriously need to.
or she will be dead.
please motivate her and spare no mercy.
goodnight.
i mean,
good morning!
let's go for mac breakie.

sihui: my eyecandy is..... not in ny. haha. very obvious. who's your eyecandy!


sookchan: ok you buy for me necklace then you can call me mamasan. on? tell me when your're ready then. update ur blog la!


shaomin: i realised qt a few people complained about their unglam photos on your blog. ahhaha. im so scared now! i must protect my image please. sweet young and innocent.


vanessa: not funney hair boy! i never never ever think he's good looking omg!! its the last name you said haha. NOT NICE ANYMORE.


innpoh: ahhaha. a lot of typo. 'bogskin'. 'blue vest LOOK cool'. hahaha. why type so fast! act pro ah. its funney when you say out the first tag. o. thanks anw.


joan: ya! skinny club. wait no. i should ask my sister join the eating club. wait not enough. i create one 'eat oily and slimy chicken fats club". how bout that. anw, thanks for APGP!




anw my right eye was so swollen this morning that i felt like cutting out my whole eyebag. ok yes damn gross. i could feel the heat from the swollen eye please. it looked like my eye was closed. but after pe, it was all so much better.
i heal by myself.
i am claire from 'heroes'
supergirl.




i better go now.
damn hungry.
growl.
anw, i finally had mc!
after 1/1/2 years.
finally, my teachers can really believe me.
im so proud of myself.

-for getting mc?-

i had my 3rd stomachache today.
love it.
love 'em shit all.


did i say i totally love shitting?
it takes up a whole lot of my time seriously.


my blogger page is being anal with me.
very very very extremely weird now.


pulau ubin. joan, my sis as skinny as you? uber.

guess what my sis took on a sat night.

its called ......... flower.


i love love love dried tomyam maggimee.



ok and finally,
received photos from sookchan aka ruby aka may.
thanks may!
o anw, i've put up the ruby song on my blog.
click play.
hah.


man, may! its looks darn fake.

ali, so sad.

here's innpoh's hello hello kitty.
it felt damn smooth.

the joker of the day.

the two nyjc children.