i feel so siannn that im in a jc.
its damn boring.
maybe because i don't have a real cca now.
i always wish im with uwsg.
together with them we'll join the same cca
for we have common interest i suppose.
whatever we join i'll be happy.
i met gongz just now after skoo.
thankfully gongz stays near my skoo.
at least i get to meet a member of uwsg often.
i want to achieve something when i leave school you know.
not academic wise.
i duno.
i duno what's wrong with me.
i think im qt a failure.
am i hating ny now?
i thought i have.
but my friends came to my mind.
they bring joy to me everyday.
even today.
when serene and po din come and i left skoo early because i was seriously seriously feeling unwell and i know dickson doesn't believe me.
the compre test was shit ass man.
im gona flunk it.
and of course,
im gona flunk econs. that's for certain.
i hope next week will be a better week.
i wana make clay.
but nobody wants to join with me.
if it's weekend i dun wan it thou.
how how?
ok i just realised smethng.
my ny clique is call random/ kpo association.
sorry i forgot!
o yes.
erm
i din get gongz's bd present for tmr.
what to do!??!?!?!
shit shit shit.
im so dead.
i cant wait to get to to the swimming pool with vanessa next week and celebrate jerlyn's bd please.
and i dun wana go to the class com workshop o k.
i tink only the CTs shld go.
did i mention that i hate gp and i dread gp tutorials every mon tues and fri?
i wana pon evry gp lesson.
the main reason wld be my friends aren't there!
ok maybe yes.
i must be content with it.
at least there are pple i know there.
yes yes.
anw my new fun now is rubbing eraser dust and make them so long then i will swing it over to people.
ok i think i better stop all these disgusting thngs.
jerlyn says ima disgusting person.
im sorry for being so disgusting.
dun hate me man.
im your best friend!
anw jerlyn cant read my blog.
who cares.
hah.
i have so many regrets this year already.
one regret wld be not joining chingay when christabel asked me.
i really want now.
im damn stupid.
i think im seriously dumb.
baka.
that reminds me.
i learnt french and jap at gongz's today.
bonjour monsieur
oui
ah bon
sortie, bus. ah, taxi.
au revoir.
somatsu
chichi (hey kpo association! chichi is what you call your father.)
muda
haha
anawata
guess which is french and which's jap!
and the rest i cant recall now.
cant rmb those loooooong sentences.
im gona watch nodame cantabile now.
recommended by gongz.
shal do my hw.... tonite? or sun?
hmm.
I MISS YOU YOU YOU!!!! WHERE ARE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
come find me please!
and make me laugh til i sit or lie on the floor and my stomach has muscles and my urine leaks out.
laugh laugh laugh.
shld i cry or shld i not?
i think im beginning to feel how serene and yixiu feels.
when ur inside your room or toilet and u just start to cry.
i feel like im supposed to cry.
i feel i've suffered the most.
but all aren't true.
i feel im weak inside.
i question my actions.
i dig out my past.
i dig out my regret and found i have new ones.
what's wrong man?

au revoir.