Friday, April 13, 2007
today was rather lousy. i feel so useless. so stupid. such a bitch tze yin. such a bitch. regrets. omg. omg. is all i can say. what else tze yin. what else other than omg can you say or do that will help in this situation. now you cant solve it. you'll have to live with it. live with those regrets you've created today.school was ok. pw:c. whatever. well jerlyn, hope you'll feeling better about your grade now.well, life's like that. so unfair huh. its over. well, you still have me. call me or leave me a msg ok? anw, have fun in camp. overall today, i met vanessa and xiany, had the last gp essay outline presented, received pw results, made trivial and major phone calls, met and heard from many people who are down.today, i realised i shouldnt complain of how unlucky, how life's bad or stinky till hell for me. because in fact, its not. i've jsut gotta live with life. because today i found out the true meaning of being lucky, being myself. and now when people complains about trivial stuff i get so irritated. i do not know how to say this but just know this, you are so lucky to be studying right now, doing homework and mugging and having a good family. o sissy, as im typing this im getting all moodless and confused at what im saying.take care my friend. im sorry if i've said or done anything wrong. im sorry after that call you were emotional. im sorry im sorry im sorry and i want so much to care for you but i just do not know how. i do not know why i am so affected maybe because i am just human. i am just sensitive. i am just your friend. maybe i shouldn't have brought it up. maybe you think i should be saying this here.i... well, life's great. family's great. uber duper great.i am at a loss of words.i had goosebumps.i had tears.i have regrets and i want them back.but i cant.i had anxiety.i had nervousness.i had...i am a bitch.tze yin is a lousy lousy lousy human. she speaks ironically. her life is full of regrets. and she needs to learn. to learn. please tze yin, wake up. please. i need faith. in?
we are the guests, not the hosts of the Earth
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