im so tired physically and mentally.
i duno when my ache will ever end.
perhaps its permanent.
parhaps its sme disease.
mentally because i always have to deal with ridiculous insensible immatured people directly and indirectly.
and then i get so mad i perhaps will be on the verge of crying.
then suddenly last night, i missed my grandma so much i started tearin on my bed.
and today as well.
but i can't exactly blame the large no. of old people staying in this area.


i dun understand why he can be so disorganized.
why din he assign work while thinkin sensibly?
is he in the right state of mind/feeling sleepy, as always, in class.
why cant he stop blurtin out words of hurt, rubbish and tries to act funney (when obviously he's not) and big.
i used to think he's nice. that was way long ago.
im angry at how i can get such a friend.
people like that will never get my forgiveness and sympathy.
he sometimes speak without thinking.
"please check before you speak"
i think that would best suit him, although it was what he said to me.
so now, im gona keep repeatin that to him.
if i bother to talk to him.
because of all his actions/words, i regretted joinin the cca so darn much.
regretted makin him as a friend.
embarrassed at the times all of us went out.
because i cant believe i actually did.
time definitely tells all.
how true.


today, i gt super pissed and i walked away without attendin cca.
"what does he being occupied has anythin to do with us?"
cant anyone start cca first?
things are no longer the same before june.
stepping down is a must already.
meeting times, if its urgent, shld b favourable to j2s.
i duno why some people cannot use their brains in certain situations.
maybe open the mouth too big all the dust go into the brain.
aren't mid yrs in june impt?
so march dun need study?
even if there was sme time for us to do, ok, but food and reception stuff only can be done nearer to the date.
main thing, deco.
we're act doing the heavy job.
isn't it the first time decoratin the LT for film fest?
bought materials and idea was rejected?
cant it be words of encouragement and perhaps tell us use materials to improve on idea?
even if not said, we could think of it.
i guess, a bad leader is shown.
then again, j1s?
did the j2 in the cca do so much like us last yr?
o hold on, i rmb the j1s did last yr.
wow.
i duno whats goin on in his brain.
as you've noticed, i kept talkin bout his brain.
because its true of the above.
i dun understan how he can be our class leader and the president of our cca.
perhaps he's the best choice(wait. no. its so obvious.)
perhaps nobody wana be.
working with him is a nightmare.
i pity his friends.

loser.
i was supposed to make a voodoo today.
but i have work to do.
j2s have a lot of work to do.
maybe he shld have shifted workload to j1s earlier.
obviously he is myopic, literally as well.
ok maybe voodoo tmr.
emmeline's makin with me too.
and i duno if he knows there are so many out there who doesn't like him?
hmm.
shld i say?
o i've said.


gosh,
an entry dedicated to a loser.
wastin my time?
man.
could have written so much stuff for my hw.
i hope to get over film fest asap.
which is act a bad thng because i was supposed to anticipate it.
well, all because of smeone.
he's ruined a little part of my life.
and others' lives.
pollutin it.
damn gross.


you needa think more man.
start acting like a man.
shut up when you need to.
brush your teeth.