watched 881 for the 2nd time today. man. its good. this time, i cried even more and laughed even harder. i realised i've caught the serene's laughter bug. u noe, her laughter sounds like heavy fast breathing and you can perhaps imagine the nose shit comin out of the nose. ok whatever. so today in the cinema i was doing that for the whole movie! disgustin. just for a few moments i laughed normally. damnit.


and when i was on my way hme with mum at novena busstop this chao ah ma spat at me wtf. i almost shouted at her but i hesitated after knowing she's mentally unsound. hmm. whats her prob man. o yea, mentally unsound. damn gross. i went hme to wash my face.


i love mingzhu sisters to the max.


last sat, me dad and sis went to night safari. woohoo. i felt totally refreshed. the fresh air. and it seemed like an early dark morning, just like how 3am looks like. and since that day onwards, the owl became my new favourite animal, other than the giraffe. and so when i went lib with emmeline on sun, i wenta look for books on owls. man. they are darn pretttyyyy! i wana be like harry potter. i mean i want his snowy owl! gorgeous.


neeeda get down to work.
why wun anyone wana go lib with me tmr?
just tmr?!?!?
im so not independent.


go tze yin.
go prelims people.

OMG.
I DREAMT OF GRANNY.
she looks utterly thin.
weak.
just like the way she looked when she went.
shrunken and bony.
its horrible and painful to watch her that way in my dream.
the dream is weird.
but could it be she, her spirit really entered my dream?
i hope so.
she caressed my right cheek with her trembling hands.
i held it and i think i cried.
it was weird because i knew in my dream she was supposed to be dead.
she was on my sofa.
seriously shrunken.
is she really here.
is she going back soon.
are you beside me now?
can i hold you.








just a few days ago when my teacher mentioned ttsh and people going there to perform for the elderly as music therapy, i almost teared i swear but i was cool. the whole scene came flashing back in my head. i missed the times i rushed from school to the hospital. and then my dad goes there everynight till late to just be by her side. music therapy allows them to forget their troubles, their pain. im glad she's gone. her pain will be gone. i hope she's healthy now. almost one full yr has passed. i hope she visits me in my dream tonight. this time, i'll hug her. i must. and play the game we used to play. and watch her watch the sunset after eating. let her watch me eat.


i wana feel your hand.
i hope it isn't so cold now.

HEHLO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DECIDED TO BLOG SINCE IM ONLINE PLUS I HAVEN BEEN GOOD UPDATING.
this year, i caught 4 really great movies.
not according by rank,
harry potter
simpsons
881
TRANSFORMERSSS.
ok ok, i have to rank transformers top.
PLEASE DUN BE SAD SERENE,
(she hasn't watched.)
you'll watch soon. on TV!


speaking bout 881,
some secondary school freaks, idiot freaks, were sitting next to me and when the sad part came on, when the girl was dyin and going bald, they went "yao si le, yao si le."- going to die. AND "botak botak" and they laughed. WTF!?!??!?#??E>:> OMG YUCKIESSSSS. i couldn't concentrate at all! i could have cried more but because of them, only a little. ruin the atmosphere for me please. ya whatever.


ok just a few days ago, i think wed, yep, me and sihui saw sandhya (YES SANDHYA!)- the one from 4c, majella plus julia. and FINALLY, i saw julia's bf. yay. anw i din talk to sandhya. sorry man. ya, like she's gona read my blog. hmm, but who knows. hahaha. o man. i fell in love with the pair of converse shoes sihui tried on and another pinstripe pair online. goodness... please, someone, pleaseeee sponsor me.


o yea, then came a big news about johnny toh in the newspaper. even my non cedar friends know bout it. hah.


the things i talk about are super brief and not in order because things come to my mind just like that. and i think i was supposed to talk about this now. just today the lib aunty was saying that BMW equates to big mouth woman and the other aunty's bicycle equates to mercedes. hahha. she's hell funney. the other aunty is as hilarious, calling smebody "the nehneh". i think she can be friends with cathleen. O YEA, I SAW CATHLEEN TODAY! CATHLEEN! I SAW YOU! AND I KNOW YOU KNOW I SAW YOU! AHAHA. actually we talked la. too bad i din see yixiu. i shal name today a weird day. earlier on, i mean yesterday morning (since its already past 12), i received super duper oober random messages from joan and serene. first came serene's - it went smthn like " i haven pay you for the ticket also. pay you tmr.... .... the bus is full of aunty and children, i am the only teenager, i feel like ....". Joan's was "see how first... raining mah...". I DIN EVEN MESSAGE THEM! oh hell. ahhhaa. and today, emmeline saw blood on the toilet seat in the lib and the blood kinda left a trail of smeared blood from the toilet to the floor outside until the carpet. eeeew. dun you think its super super weird? one aunty was guessing maybe someone had a miscarriage. my mum tot pretty true because she saw news about smeone flushing the baby down the toilet bowl. wth. hahah. im not gona believe that. grr. i really wana know the truth.


turning back time, i was at the ndp parade. the goodie bag is greatttt. we got to choose bag colours and the goodies rocks please. i got my giraffe hat but a ugly orange yuckie star. i wanted white. emmeline wore her lion hat with me while walking to marina sq and we got commented by a few pple. hahahha. eh but they said "wa giraffe, so big and .....(i cant rmb, perhaps elegant)". and i shouted "THANK YOU". rite. my sis was being a spoilsport since she din wana wear. eeeyer. afraid we wld embarrass her. she had her latest dinner so far in her life and looked pretty sleepy. damn funney. EH TZE YE, DUN CALL ME DISGUSTING. o yea, she said she heard the hosts asking us, the spectators to do the KALLANG wave. HUH!?!?!??! its supposed to be marina wave! rite??? i seriously heard marina please. and it was fun doing. everyone arnd me really did it and i was glad man. just that my sis din scream. yucks. HOW COULD YOU! its marina wave ok. how could it be kallang. yucks.


71 more days to As and i really duno what am i doing now. homework all the long. oh my shit i haven write a single piece of notes. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. fuck la. im damn pissed now. speakin of shit, innpoh said "speak of the shit" instead of speak of the devil. how funney. ahahha. but she know that its supposed to be devil la. she said "shit" so fast i immediately thought she said wrongly. speak of the shit is the new name for some arrogant rich freak. damn yucks ok. im never gona say hello to him ever again. unless he says hi to me.


alright. cant rmb what else am i supposed to say.
im really really worried about my stm illness.
howwwww.
izit because i choose not to rmb the things i find minor or izit because i really suffer from stm?
to me, i think its because i only focus on things i want and like to remember and notice.
ok, i hope its true.


ok, PHOTOS!

EH YOU DUN LOOK OLD LA. I LOOK LIKE I-DUNNO-WHAT.

JOAN: YUCKYYYY!!! what? crazy dun mean seow joan! so not beautiful. ahahha. kiddin kiddin. joan is beautifuL! like me.


SHAOMIN: eh u noe the ending of the harry potter book already? ask me please. hah. o ya! i must rmb to visit ur shopblog!


CATHLEEN: how dare you. so mean we are both annoying? eeeeyer. cathleen, tell me ur secret soon ok. hah. but nvm, i think i will frgt bout it tmr. hahaha. take care gagoo?


PAMELA: eh! no chance to wear the bracelet yet. haha. how much izit? haha. ur bd i oso snd you thru mail? bubble wrap stuff into mailbox. hahah.


3rd aug


those who din go for film fest missed out qt a bit man.
i have to admit the two films were pretty good.
the first was romance comedy but endin was pretty sad.
i so wanted them to be together!
and then everytime we see kianhwee we wld think of laosai.
wa lao damn funney.
basically almost everythn in the show is funney.
i even saw myself, yixiu and my class guys.
OMG MANNNN. I WANA WATCH AGAIN LAAA!
we told ms loh the lantern was made by wenzhong and she asked how he made.
so innpoh told her use 4 ikea wooden frames.
hah.


omg ya and i din noe the photo we took on a certain day was for the film fest thng everyone got. so my face was super horrendous.


back to the second show.
'recurrence'
bloody scary show please.
basically almost everygirl in the LT screamed like mad and guys behind me were laughin their asses off.
after one scary scene i pretty much faced serene and covered my ear.
so i couldnt catch the remainin parts of the show.
lucky me.
we were scared stiff after the show.
SLEEP WELL PEOPLE! ahha.
mr kwek damn funney please.
couldnt hear what he was saying.
"mr kwek, very scary lehhhhh". i was whining.
and he said it's all part of the imagination thng thats why scary.
basically, the show is good for die hard horror fans. ok no, not die hard, they wun even find it scary perhaps.
it was good.
but for people like me, i'll have to rate it 0/5.
for people who love horror, it wld be 4/5.
not bad?


me innpoh serene spent the day after school decorating.
hilarious decoration.
maybe i'll post photos after getttin from innpoh.
innpoh, you took photos rite?
had fun la.
thanks guys for all.
blowing balloons was fun to me but clearin them is a torture.
speaking of clearin,
MY WATER BOTTLE GOT LOST AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
grrrrrrrrrr.
shld b thrown away.
curse the itchy hands.


live bands played durin the film fest.
the outside one is worse than our school's.
our school's sang my favouritest favouritest songs.
truly madly deeply, more than words and the closin time song.
so i was singin along to all of them.
hold on 'closin time' was sung by the outside band.


im thinkin bout deco again.
funney.


long day short sleep givin me the ache.
or rather, pain.
howhowhowhowhowhow.


yixiu serene got sick recently. take care. please do not spread any virus to me ok. i awnt to go school. about 50 more days to prelims. wait am i rite? i think lesser days.
i feel like listening to live bands now.
shall go find a new cool hangout then.
gotta let my body rest.


bai.